Am I already dead?

So, in some of my DMT trips and other drug experiences I got the impression that I was the devil and I was in hell, and I was trapped for eternity in my own universe, a prison made to keep me out of heaven because I was prideful and I loved myself instead of God. In the lucid moments it seemed that literally everyone else was already in heaven, looking down on me, wishing and hoping and praying that I would eventually see the light and return home to heaven and serve God. In these visions I saw that everyone I knew in my life was all a manifestation of myself, my whole "life" on Earth had been a long dream and I was basically doomed to keep dreaming forever. I was dead already, sin had me chained in a dark prison. It was like I was dreaming and everything was a manifestation of my mind. I felt like I was trapped in my own dark mirror universe, where everything was a shadow of the true reality. There were many angels and demons in the form of humans who were here to either keep me in delusion or to help me see the Truth. I had a literal experience of being stuck inside an infinity loop, my whole body became multiple different infinities. Looking in a mirror I saw myself as both God in heaven and the Devil in hell, alternatively and simultaneously. All of this lead to me taking a year off from tripping, but now a little more than a year later I'm feeling "the call" to explore the psychedelic realms again.