DarkEntity

 This time i dont think i was in the right mood i didnt have a proper intention and i was very tired beforehand but i decided too anyway .and i was pretty determined to go deeper this time and i think probably too much as id also been watching lots of things on ayahuasca and shamans and all sorts or trip reoprts on yuotube so i think my vision of what i expected to see what too pre planned from the visuals you get on youtube . anyway i weighed out 35mg and sperated it into 2 equal  doses and smoked the first bit i was listening to a piece of music my friend made which has tibetan throat singing in it which is pretty dark but also nice but for some reason i think the music in the end was putting me off as id selected a bit of a play list and the rest of what id selected wasnt doing it ..so id decided to go for the SHUT EYES experience this time to see what the diffrecne was but maybe due to expectations seeing too many videos ..or not doing enough dmt i wasnt getting much just some light neon jelly fish looking outlines floating about and colours ...(maybe i was expecting too much) ..so i had filled the pipe with the rest and smoked the rest of the 35mg and layed back down then the images of the neon things got brighter and i could see an array of neon lines flowing in an ogranic way but couldnt make out what they where (nothing meaningful) apart from one reminded me of the album cover dark side of the moon by pink floyd with the glass prism and rainbow of light passing through haha...(i thought well yeah we all know pink floyd has seen the light haha) and the rest where very nice to look at ...so anyway i noitced there was a big white area in my focul vision that felt safe but the darker areas i wondered if that was DARKNESS in my mind or in life ..but as i looked at the dark areas more they exploded with colour and i was thinknig ah "even in the dark there is light" but really made me realise you cant have one without the other again ,,...(ying and yang sort of thing) which was comforting again ..throughout this i was getting a rush feeling across my forehead but it felt like pressure as well but the rush feeling felt good but after a while i thought i heard a couple of voices ..(which i did ) and they where really high pitched (elves) and the first thing they said was "you can see" "you can see" now alli could see was black behind my eye lids but with organic neon patterns but the voices sounded clear but distant to my left out of reach ...then they said "come and see"....."come and see" and i was concentrating and saying to myself (probably them) ..yes i will do (but i knew i couldn't quite get there) with that they started laughing and giggling but it wasnt like they where laughing at me just happy for when i come ...then one of them said first you must see this ..and i saw a bright white light which got further away and then next to it i saw some orange and red essense like energy flwoing near it but i thought woah is thst bad...and the high pitched elve like voice said dont worry thats in all of us / in everything so i inspected the orange and red sort of lava more ...this was all very mild visuals almost dream like but more colourful than a dream and no geometric patterns after this i sat up for a bit and the pressure on my head where the rush was felt really strong almost like someone pushing down on my head my neck even felt a bit under pressure ...then i did a huge long yawn ..and the pressure went ...obviously some sort of purging as all the pressure from the front of my head went as i yawned out this huge yawn it was relief even though the feeling of the rush itself was nice the heavy feeling on my head was wierd ..anyway i chilled out for an hour and then weighed out 40mg and filled the pipe again but i think i did mess up some tokes with the flame torch  and getting the timing right so not to burn it and inhale at the right time....anyway to cut to the chase after a lot of fucking about and getting a few lungs in ..everything on my studio table rack comparments started moving left and right all out of snyc with one another even though there all fixed in normal world (if ther is such a thing )...i got an overwhelming feeling of happy love again but really felt it was love not happiness this time and wow it me hard but good ...just the visuals where making me keep repeting WOW ....WOW ....mixed with the feeling dmt gives you it was like i was really happy to have been shown what i was seeing i felt lucky to have be seeing it ...as i kept saying wow tears started to come out of the corner of my eyes but i was so happy it was an amazment type of tears ... joy of bliss at almost nothing.. i was jsut staring at tthe moving hings in my room and was in ore of lit all just blown away ..   This trip ended up having a pretty deep effect.. as the music i was listening too whilst on the dmt was made by friend  and was tibetan style chanting but didnt feel right on that night ,he also had travelled the astral planes but had also travelled india tibet and was a true nomad of a man and sadly died the weekend after this dmt experience.... (i dont know what to make of that if anything... the music thing not being able to get into it ..when i normally really like that piece of music of his  )... but i know his energy continues , and i think the dmt helped me cope with it after.... in the way i saw him and his life and our frinedship

So my second was pretty similar to my first visuals wise but i / we did a bit more on this occasion  i had a friend over , and we hit the pipe a few times through the night with gaps between but still micro-dosing around 15 20mg per hit  (no breakthrough but wasn't trying) so that day we met up and had been having a pretty deep chat as both of us had been thorugh some hard times the last year and we had met up for our birthday's so it was a good day all in all and we decided to end it with a blast on the pipe , so the visuals this time where mainly the wooden floor moving like it was alive and in 4 layers all moving back and forth and warping but this time when i got that adrenaline feeling in the stomach and said to myself "don't worry"..all of a sudden  the fear element dissapeared straight away.. and i started to really revell in what i was seeing .. i was so happy to see what what i was seeing.. and i think thats the point to this trip... it was more profound in the type of buzz... all negativity dropped and went away ...everything felt happy like a happiness you never knew... but do know ....and we both where getting really profound meanings pop up into our minds like the sort of sayings a shaman or monk would come out with ..like everything is nothing... "everything is" ...and everything is possible "YOU are in control" what "ever you want to do you can do" ...now ive had that sort of attitude in life as i have managed to accomplish a lot of my dreams although im not rich in money but i have put my mind to things i thought where only possible in dreams and then ended up accoplishing them ..so i learnt that you can get what you want if you put your mind to it (although it may take a while don't give up) ..but like all of us we lack self confidence at times and it gets in the way ..self doubt etc etc ...but we carry on ..anyway this experience on DMT really enforced all those possitive things back into my life ...as well as getting rid of negative vibes and people even ...when i felt so happy on dmt i said to my mate... "wow why cant it be like this all the time "...and then without thinking i said "IT CAN" ...(you just be happy and don't focus on the bad things SIMPLE) ..and it really hit me hard that it was "that simple" ..like fuck yeah ...from then on ive really made a big effort to get rid of negative things in my life from watching the news to thinknig of bad things and getting angry about things i cant control and even cutting down on a couple of people in my life that where where just draining my energy all the time ...its all a path and im by no means a master ... but its so good having that feeling back even though it wears off a bit... deep down you know you can do it ...what ever IT ..is ..just put your mind to it and it will mannifest into reality .

so i extracted some dmt and decided to test a small bit out ...but as i was on my own and as it was my first time  i didn't go too mad (just a small scoop probably 15mg to 20mg) as i had no clue or scales that went down that low at the time . anyway i took a hit and not much smoke came out on exhale but i got that trademark taste and started to feel the adrenaline feeling coming over me , i had another toke which was better and bigger held it in and let it out... as i was letting out the anethstetic feeling got more powerful across my body and the bufferflies in my stomach got more intense ...but felt good just suprised at how quick this came over (i have done numerous other recreational drugs) ..within a few more seconds the knobs on my synthesizer i make music with all started swaying in sync but all seemed to have there own energy as they where swaying from left to right i could see a sort of purple pink neon glow around the edges of them ..with that the keys on my music keyboard started going up and down.. like someone was playing them but with no sound ..this was all a bit freaky but i was enjoying it. by now i told myself not be worried but each time i looked at other objects in the room they would come to life (like i could see the life force that is in "everything") the cables on my equipment loooked like they where moving almost like snakes ..(but it didn't firghten me i used to own a snake)..my vape atomiser tank started spinning in a votrex which was placed on top of my speaker which looked cool .... but this all got a bit much.. as i didnt know how far it was going to go. at one point everything started to vibrate it looked like the legs on my table the walls everything was osscilating with a hum ...this is when i thought WOAH ..i dont think im ready for a breakthrough yet (haha)..so i stood up and walked around to try straighten up a bit ...when i looked at my arms they where wierd seemed like play doh almost alive morphing ...anyway this all then died down a bit but when i looked at the floor ...wow ...my wooden floor looked amazing the floor looked like it had 3 or 4 versions of the floor like 3 or 4d and all morphing but with a sort of transparent purple hue / energy was also there like a layer above or within it ..which was flowing at its own rate and flow and almost neon..after this it re-affirmed my belief in the fact everything has energy in it even solid objects etc and life is infinite and made me worry less about death knowing there is more afterwards...and this was from only a small experience although im pretty down to earth person and was brought up by parents from the hippy generation (and i'm part of the RAVE generation) so im pretty open minded but seeing it feeling it and knowing it through DMT really makes a difference to my life in a possitive way ..for weeks after from time to time .. i would find myself reflecting on things from the past (or what ever) from a truly 3rd person perspective without emotional baggage and looked at things in a totally nuetral way and was at ease with things..these where not necessarily all bad things i was looking at..but it really helped me a lot in my current life too .and im continuining to be more aware of living in the "now" and let go of negative feelings or emotions.... anyway ive had a few more experiences since and will maybe post those.. but thought id share my first .