I wrote a post last week about recently experiencing being stuck, and the feeling that I can't come back, or that I broke my brain and I'm in a facility somewhere. I had put off dosing for months beca... View MoreI wrote a post last week about recently experiencing being stuck, and the feeling that I can't come back, or that I broke my brain and I'm in a facility somewhere. I had put off dosing for months because I was just scared that I'd get caught in some thought loop.I decided to forego the changa and went for what was supposed to be 220mcg of lsd. I think it was more than 220, or there was something about my body chemistry that day. It hit hard and shot me straight into space. I took it with my adult son and his best friend. I'm usually isolated during a trip, but decided to change up the setting, hang with them and listen to music. This is the first time I have ever experienced my trip merging with someone else's trip.We got to be a bit too much for my wife and she sent us to the balcony and closed the shutters. As soon as she did that, everything changed. My plants started dancing, we sat on a big couch cushion with some big pillows, and the balcony transformed into a spaceship. We all experienced this, and the ship took off through hyperspace. We had a blast. I haven't bonded with my son like that in years, it was like he was a little kid again, and we were in some awesome space mountain reality.The next day my wife was like, I'm sure the neighbors could hear you 3 out there laughing and yelling "We're on a spaceship! OMG! We're on a spaceship!"I never experienced any of the negative thoughts that I'd been stressing about. It was undoubtedly my most fun trip ever.
Haven't voyaged since July. Considering blasting off tomorrow, but I'm petrified.My past 3 trips, (2 on lsd and the last on Changa), I got an overwhelming feeling that I was still in my previous trip,... View MoreHaven't voyaged since July. Considering blasting off tomorrow, but I'm petrified.My past 3 trips, (2 on lsd and the last on Changa), I got an overwhelming feeling that I was still in my previous trip, that it had never ended, and everything between the 2 trips, my whole life between the trips wasn't real. Or something like that. So far, the feeling passes quickly, but it is extremely unsettling. It was the strongest with the changa.I blasted right off, and then this confusing feeling of "Oh shit, I'm still in here. I've been in here this whole time." Like, "Oh, I really went crazy on that last trip and never recovered. Maybe I'm actually in a facility somewhere."Like I said, so far it passes quickly, and I move on to normal things like communing with dragons.But it's unsettling enough that I've felt the call to journey several times over the past few months and can't muster the courage to do it.Tomorrow I have a friend coming over for Changa and I still don't know what I'm going to do.It's hard for me to open up about this. I'm almost 49 and I only started with psychedelics 2 years ago. I'm a firm believer. I am a better person because of these journeys into my mind. I'm so grateful that it's hard to admit that something negative has emerged and seems to be following me.Has anyone else experienced something similar? Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
Cactus people,I've been going over all the methods for brewing tea and one of the main points of contention seems to be whole cactus vs. green outer layer only.The whole cactus people point to the fac... View MoreCactus people,I've been going over all the methods for brewing tea and one of the main points of contention seems to be whole cactus vs. green outer layer only.The whole cactus people point to the fact that this is how it's usually done in Peru, and claim that even though most of the mescaline is in the green layer, there's still mescaline and other alkaloids to be had in the white flesh.The green layer people say using whole cactus is inefficient and the white flesh is where you'll find most of your nausea. Looking for some experienced tea makers to offer their opinions.
I often hear that 1ft of bridge is a good dose. How thick should the plant be? The plant near my hand is 28 inches tall measuring from its own base, not the base of the rootstock it pupped from. It is... View MoreI often hear that 1ft of bridge is a good dose. How thick should the plant be? The plant near my hand is 28 inches tall measuring from its own base, not the base of the rootstock it pupped from. It is 5.9cm (2.3 inches) at its widest point.The one in the back just arrived this week. It's 29.5 inches tall with a 10 inch pup. It's not as fat though. No plans to harvest either of them now. I'm considering doing it next year at 3 feet, so I'll have 2ft to brew and 1ft of tip to root.Am I off base? Should I be letting them grow much bigger? Another few years?
Like the spiral arms of an alien galaxy, there are entire worlds in there...
I read that peyote naturally grows under partial shade of mesquite trees, but I didn't have any mesquite.
The sacred family is growing...
Almost forgot about the Kanna. It's really growing fast!
The whole fam. That's it for plant purchases this year. I have 25 pachanoi seeds I'll try to grow. Also have Aztec tobacco seeds on the way, but unless they show up in the next few days, I'm not plan... View MoreThe whole fam. That's it for plant purchases this year. I have 25 pachanoi seeds I'll try to grow. Also have Aztec tobacco seeds on the way, but unless they show up in the next few days, I'm not planning them this year.
Finally got a triple bloom on my peyote!!!
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