First flowers of the year and I get a quintuple bloom!!!
I've had some crazy and beautiful trips on acid, mescaline and changa. But I have never had the guts to just let go. I'm always afraid of losing control. What if I say something I don't want known?... View MoreI've had some crazy and beautiful trips on acid, mescaline and changa. But I have never had the guts to just let go. I'm always afraid of losing control. What if I say something I don't want known? What if I wake up in the hospital? I know it's unlikely, but I can't shake the fear of it.I've gone hard before. Wasn't sure if I was dead or alive or who I was. But part of me alway puts up a fight to the death to remain in control. The only time I knew it was out of my hands and I had zero say in what was happening was changa, I had what should have been half a breakthrough dose and never touched it again. I now have 5 big breakthrough doses just sitting for over a year because I don't have the courage to go all the way.I honestly don't know how to get past it.Should I try a session with strangers? People I'll never see again and won't worry about what I may say or do?I told my son, I'd be more comfortable letting go if I was in restraints and knew I'd end up in the same place I started.I don't know where to go from here.
I have only a small balcony. But to me, this is the grandest, most opulent temple on earth. There is an entire universe here.
The growing season is off to a good start.
Woohoo! My cactus brew worked like a charm! OEVs were very subtle, but the CEVs were off the charts. Having now tried all the classics, I think I've found my teacher.
First try with the Irishlion tek
5.5 feet of Pachanoi + 1.5 feet of Bridgesii
6 kg fresh weight
Cooked down to six, 250ml doses.
Fingers crossed
Cactus question. I have about 6kg of fresh cut cactus (mostly Pedro with a little Bridge), length is about 83 inches, almost 7 feet total.From what I've seen online, this should give me about 6 doses ... View MoreCactus question. I have about 6kg of fresh cut cactus (mostly Pedro with a little Bridge), length is about 83 inches, almost 7 feet total.From what I've seen online, this should give me about 6 doses of brew.My plan is to consume at a ceremony next weekend. Having no clue on potency, I'm considering 3 options.1. Take my medicine and just drink a full dose.2. Dose half, wait 2 hours and redose if needed.3. Dose half this week as a test.Any advice would be greater appreciated. I have lots of experience with acid, much less with dmt and mushrooms, but no experience with cactus.From what I've heard, even if a heavy mescaline trip gets intense, you still feel pretty much in control. If thats true, it makes me less averse to taking the whole dose without testing the waters.
Some new additions to my garden of the gods.
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