Small dose big lesson

So it was pretty wild I took half a gram of my GT mushrooms and smoked a little weed as usual. I felt it hitting strong(comparable to my previous highest at 1.5g) and had been feeling lonely because it was New Years and while I know that means nothing it still “means” something to a certain extent when you feel vulnerable. Been going through a lot of shit in life. And I recently cut ties with mom for good, possibly brother for a long while. They are what I have learned to call energy vampires something fierce, and my brother financially as well. So that sucked too. Anyway as midnight approached I had been talking to a couple people venting (I love you all thank you) and had a flood of emotions so I decided to meditate with my eyes closed a bit. I put on poranguí on Spotify. So I’m there stuck in this thought loop and it’s like 3 songs into the album and all of a sudden it flips to “rise and fall” by stick figure who I love but didn’t know the song really. And I hear it and the first line “I coulda saw it coming, but the voices in my head they won't stop” and I’m like holy shit and snap out of it and started crying as I realized how terrified I am of just being honest for many reasons. And we talked a bit more I had another thought about how all the months of meeting great people online and finding a family online ultimately helped in the future when I had to drop these toxic people even if temporarily. And this plot had been playing out for months kinda “blossoming” right at midnight so to speak. Yes the “fabricated” day of celebration that means nothing yet plays it’s part in the story haha. Oh how ironic and funny life can be! And it just made me feel really fucking grateful at that moment so I sent out a bunch of messages thanking people. I don’t know what made Spotify “glitch” like that but I am thankful for the small miracle :)