Trip Reports
This morning, the Wifey woke me up from my sleep and told me to feed our fur baby. After I fed my sweet fur baby, I went ahead and grabbed my fruits and informed the misses I was going to be taking only 1.4g of my Melmac in a tea. She said I was fine as long as I didn't travel to different planets while she was at work. Well, let's say I got more than what I bargained for initially. While I let my tea properly steep, I went ahead and started with my set and setting. I cleaned some dishes and organized the house a bit while having some Nag Champ Extra rich incense burning. Once the tea was ready, I went ahead and sipped it with drinking down the last of it towards the end. I then went outside and walked my sweet, precious dog. After I felt the come up, I took my little girl and put her inside while doing a trash trip. After I was done, I went inside and shut the door. I decided to play with my dog until the effects kicked in. She sensed my prescence change, and I chased her around the house playfully until the heavy body load wouldn't allow me. Quickly, the floor shifted, and patterns came out with the cartoony like animations, which later on turned into an intense emotional and bodily roller coaster. I had my headphones in with my amazing playlist going while being tossed around left and right and eventually passed out on the couch until my sister in law walked in. I casually let her know I wasn't in the room, but I'll be back shortly spiritually speaking. As the intensity grew, I ended up getting cold and went to my room to put on my jacket. However, when I looked at myself in the mirror, my inner demon was showing again, but this time, when I looked at my hands, it looked like I was the creature. Some may fear religiously speaking. I'm referring to Lucifer or Pan from Pans Labyrinth, which is how i would explain it. I did not allow it to shock me as I tossed on my colorful hoodie and sat on the couch. My playlist was perfect since it had Pink Floyd, Collie Budz, and more. All appropriate for what I was going through since I was dealing with the passing of my American grandfather who raised me and "shocker" found it to late from my father that my Ukrainian grandfather passed away during Xmas and my Aunt didn't even bother to tell me or my family until later on. I was also facing some hard memories of trauma I went through, including my relationship with my Wifey almost falling apart completely last year. After I hit the peak, my eyes were forced shut, and I surrendered to the experience. Every inner demon had a face, but I allowed them to move on and not bother me. I also went into a hallway that seemed to be filled with Jesters, but I didn't let them get to me either. Felt like I was going through a carnival in my life. The Jesters, to me, represented the toxic work environment that I exposed, and the hallway was indeed a representation of a carnival of problems. Eventually, I was growing super tired and was ready to go back to bed. Had my headphones in and allowed Pink Floyd's Shine On You Crazy Diamond part 1 play with part 2 shuffled after Collie Budz Brighter Days. I got to hear every musical note play and was mesmerized by the talent of this band. My Dad was super into them and had the Wall Vinyl with the cool limited edition poster. My american aunt, who I'm super close, told me my Dad used to be cool until he became a religious man. Though unlike him, I have spirituality and religion balanced but not overlapping. Those are two very different things. However, he finally decided to accept the pineal glands' existence, but he calls it "The Minds Eye." I'll give him credit and take it as a cooler way of saying Third Eye. Honestly, having my third eye has helped me process grief better and take action with all of my family members before it is too late while keeping a face at work. I have also become very mature and get a lot of compliments from 40+ age group, whether I'm at work or anywhere since I simply don't complain and I just do my job. My relatives, especially after I gave my grandfather, the 2 minute Euology that he deserved. That there gave me the deserved respect that hopefully I can keep the family in touch one way or another. To say the least, I have learned from him that time is indeed short and that you have to create good memories with family and friends. I have hit this enlightenment period in my life where I realized that time goes by rapidly and that those days are no longer days. Those days to turn into just hours with 5 weeks becoming 5 years. After being covered up in the blanket and drifting away into the forever nothing I had to say, I felt quite peaceful! In fact, I now know why my grandfather smiled at me as he drifted away as I got to say goodbye to him. Yes, I did see him float around the room of the hospital, comforting us his mourning. I still remember when his spirit touched me during the speech that I felt that same warmth again in my sleep. I feel now after this experience that I can move on for the better. I don't have much to say after that cause I drifted away into the depths of my mind and got my good 2-3 hours of close eyed visuals and sleep. I simply accepted that I was already dreaming and relaxed. Then, out of nowhere, my sweet dog came out of nowhere and gave me kisses. As I was listening to music and staring at the ceiling, my phone rang, and I was on come down mode. It was my Wifey and she asked if I could bring her lunch and I was able to talk myself in to where I can get her lunch since I needed her the most right now and our sweet fur child wanted to see her mummy. I'll refer to my fur child as BooBoo, her nickname. I felt so good and refreshed while seeing life in the trees, the bright green grass, and everything. I walked out the door saying today is indeed a new day. Once I got in the car, I had the music playing, and the windows rolled down all carefree as I zipped down historical El Camino Real. The flowers were in bloom, and the rain brought joy to a dry desert out here in North San Diego. Brought lunch and then decided to take her to Starbucks and get her, me, and a drink for her boss along with my BooBoos pup cup. My energy was patient, observant, carefree, and whacky. In a way, I know I made my ladies' day. Then, on the way home, I zipped down the famous 78 where everyone loves to street race at night. To be fair, it was built for that. However, being day time, I was just cruising casually and even have made perfect lane changes, which I usually never do just to get home. To say the least, I'm happy to be healed. I love the afterglow effect to. To conclude this unique Melmac trip report this experience has been ranked as #1 with JMF as #2 Pe6 #3 and Mazatepec #4 However, every Mushroom is special but Melmac in itself is it's own type of unique.
Posted in: Psilocybin
Topics:
acceptance, love, grief, death, past trauma, unity
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ChernobylMyco your insight about suffering is profound. I also accept suffering as inescapable, sickness, death, loss of loved ones , no one can escape those pains. From a Buddhist perspective, becoming “no one“ , witnessing from the point of non attachment while being fully engaged in the drama ... View More
Shaboy no I haven't had a practice into the slumber realm, unless surrendering during a hero dose and closing my eyes counts then I know for sure I have peace to look forward to. However, any advice on deep meditation is appreciated!
I’ve been practicing and teaching the Griffith/Hopkins/Richards protocol specifically designed for psilocybin therapy. It’s worked so well every time and really helps get thru hell into heaven . This synopsis video by Gordotek is brilliant, he even hit a letter thanks from Dr Griffiths for it. I’l... View More
Surrender is key for sure, these meditations help practice that skill but I also do yoga nidra which really helps to completely let go as well as holotropic/rebirthing type Breathwork, there comes a point when by letting go the breath takes over and you really start to trip . Getting a feel for that... View More