Razzy316

I know I didn't "breakthrough" because I only managed to take 1 hit. The overwhelming instant visuals were so powerful and completely new to me. The first thing I noticed was like a color filter in the essence of sepia ( like the old western photos they cheaply mimic at boardwalks or amusement parks) moved down my vision from top to bottom pretty fast and took over my vision. I noticed that everything had it's own moving border and soft edges became very squared off and hard right angles replaced soft round corners. My wife was watching an episode of NCIS and it was on a scene where the lead detective was facing the right side of the screen and his head quickly but in 1 layer at a time became almost like a Minecraft head or 8 bit pixelated. Very fast these visuals set in. Then I sat back into the corner of our sectional and crossed my hands over my chest interlocking my fingers. I only remember that because it was significant later. I spent a solid few minutes observing the wallpaper border going around the room where the walls meet the drop ceiling. It's a burgundy back color with a golden leafy yet almost paisley pattern. It was very actively changing shape and spinning in place but slowly. Maybe more morphing than spinning. I noticed my legs felt very sluggish to move and felt farther away then they should. I was beginning to disconnect from my body. At this point my I made the decision to close my eyes. Instantly I was transported to a very dark place almost absent of light which bothers me now but didn't then. I feel like at this point the trip started to deconstruct and the comedown started to happen. I distinctly remember the image of almost a watermelon cut in half lengthwise. Vividly green on the outside and pink directly after going from a fleshy pink tone lighter and lighter to almost white at the center. This also feels 8 bit to me. While I was in this space I could hear the other 2 people in the room with my body conversing about me. I felt an incredible urge to communicate to them or acknowledge that I could hear them but I had no idea how to use my body to speak. I couldn't raise my hands to give a thumbs up. All I could do was a smile, which was enough because they saw it and recognized what it was. I remember thinking "holy shit how am I ever going to speak again? How am I ever going to communicate with my wife again?" For maybe a split second a feeling of dread came over me but almost instantly I disregarded that notion and easily moved past it. The comedown felt very calm controlled and peaceful. It started with heavy visuals and ended the same way. Where they elevated almost single layer at a time they deconstructed the same way. Those hard right angles that made up the corners of my leather theatre style love seat became soft and plush again. The wallpaper border stopped moving and morphing slowly until finally, it stopped. I remember feeling myself getting almost plugged back into my body. Only when the visuals were almost gone could I finally unlace my fingers and lift my hands off of my chest. I know there was more but I can't remember anything else in detail. Certain visuals are still kind of there but blurry. Like a 4k tv screen but the front glass is covered in steam. Very frustrating. I never had any interactions with any other beings or entities. The only voice I heard was my own thoughts. I'm a little over 24 hours since the trip and remembering anything else seems impossible.