Malaga

Hey pioneers! Very shy guy here. Not much of a words person. Breakthrough,at least for me, comes really easy. Just have to let go. I mean really let go. Comes naturally to me because I don’t have nothing. No properties, no gods,no family. First time I took DMT I done small dose,smoke it between 6 persons. Everything was very clear, felt detaching my body,seeing the sealing (I had the pillow on my face) , turn around and saw my body,every one in the room. More curious than scared,decided to go along and passed through the roof, and then exactly like google earth,zooming out,the foreign country I was in,continent,planet,zooming the moon and so one the entire planet system. I’ve seen at hi resolution all the planets,but I’ve really admired the rings of Saturn which are really really thin,not the way they are sowing us and really dumbfounded by Jupiter which seemed so much more important for our solar system that any other planet. Finally stopped at the end of solar system because the rest of the guys seeing only geometrical figures were too excited and pulled my body and arms to explain me their experience. Don’t want to bore you out with details but every time I took DMT I always here the noise al lower frequencies and go higher with the trip until I am baffled with the trip and no longer pay attention to them I have done this with a very young age before pentium2 and computer simulations. After this I have studied all the religions know to men in the present day and got a PHD in theology. I’ve done rituals,rituals from grimoires, read all the alchemy manuscripts that I could get my hands on and practiced along the years. A year ago decided to make my on yellow DMT. Simple. 3 big hits. Again the low frequency noise. Pulled trough tunnel. One of many many tunnels. All of them turning in 90 degrees around each other but not touching other tubes. I was travelling inside the tube faster than light because the colours were fading away behind me. Men wail the sensation of dying,didn’t care because the curiosity was just a bit stronger then my DNA encoded sense of self preservation. Also the sentiment of connection with Everything and jumps between different person and small entities confusing my self with others self’s. Difficult to explain. Finally arrived. A planet. Entities. No colours. Just static energy. Exactly like tv with no channel. Just black and white dots moving around. Every thing was just moving black and white dots. The sun was the same. But the weird thing about it was that it didn’t have a movement on the sky like our sun but it would disappear ant appear on the sky in places I wouldn’t expect. Exactly like an electron does around the nucleus. I’ve approached the entities. Very tall. Humanoid like but long tall bodies with long heads. All made of same white and black moving dots. They know I am there. They don’t care. Not even looking at me. They are all starting at the Sun. no emotion. I dare to ask: how to stop suffering?! One is turning his face at me. Is looking straight in to my soul and give me the answer: STOP WISHING. I cry. I understand. I don’t remember crying in my life. Never. I believed that was a condition. That I don’t have tears channels. But now I was waking up with tears and n my face,getting in to my mouth,feeling the salty taste. As I was waking up with wet face I was repeating the same word for 2 minutes or so:thank you!!!! Sorry for my english Sorry for my poor ability to express myself. But I just wanted to say that you will not get the answer that will satisfy you,so,better search for right question instead.