Shannon

Normally my psilocybin trips are filled with enlighten discoveries and overall a better understanding of my own psyche. I can say that most of my psychedelic trips aren't "fun" because of the rollercoaster of emotions I personally go through. A few days ago I had taken 3.5g of some shrooms my friend had grown and harvested by herself. I started off feeling very odd, my chest was heavy and my throat felt itchy and as if I had a huge mass stuck there. Trying to understand where this feeling was coming from I started brainstorming all of the recent events that have impacted me. The one that stood out the most was telling my mother and father that I was raped as a child by a relative. I wasn't able to speak about my rape until recently. Once I concluded my source of sadness it immediately became the gasoline that fueled my anger. I had never felt rage this intense. At this point I had walked all around my room until I ended up in my closet. The closet was pitch dark with no ventilation. My eyes were closed but I could see? See colors and shapes that I can't explain also I felt a strong wind in that closet. Sitting in there filled with rage of my childhood on how some people can be so disgusting to destroy a child's innocence up to how our own U.S government doesn't care for its people, truly its predatory capitalism but yet again amazed with the beautiful understanding with an emotion that isn't accepted and personally was really repressed. It felt amazing to be enraged and being able to cry so hard. Also being able to release such emotions inspired me to paint my peacock. Anyone experienced an intense emotion that spoke to them and helped them reflect?