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AwareGreatApe

Male. Lives in London, United Kingdom. Born on September 5, 1996.

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July 11, 2020 2:43 pm

I've been wondering, can yall express why do you think you suffer in a single sentence and explain how you got there? Would be nice to get your way of connecting the dots

I'll start: I think I suffer ... View MoreI've been wondering, can yall express why do you think you suffer in a single sentence and explain how you got there? Would be nice to get your way of connecting the dots

I'll start: I think I suffer cause I lose control over my body chemistry.

How I got there:

.I think every time I'm feeling like shit It's mostly something in my body working against me. Either my mind is nagging me about a way I'm interpreting a situation.

.Having a thought that popped in my head out of connecting dots in my "library", trying to share that thought or expressing it and realize that it's really hard for people to see the same way I do, connecting the same dots I did.

.Out of this situation I only react in 3 ways depending on my balance:

.Be patient and pleasant while explaining further my perspective so people can actually relate(not meaning they have to accept it as truth, but they get to see the same picture I see before sharing their own)

.In my inability to get across someone that can relate and connect the dots I lose balance of my mind which then ends up with me losing balance of my emotional state, anxiety , anger, fear, confusion. It all becomes compulsive.

.I'm feeling chill about life and drama doesn't get to me, I feel under control. I'm able to be patient and nice to people even if they are being super judgy over a thought or situation out of miscommunication. I stopped attaching so much of my identity in my thoughts. They become toxic, attach so hard to situations, people, objects and any of those make me suffer if it doesn't go they way I'm identified with. Anyways this state feels like a wave, it used to go on and off whenever my self-esteem was high or low (depending on if things happened my way or not) but nowadays it's been happening more frequently throughout the day. I've been doing daily meditation to not take myself so seriously and give less importance to my thoughts and instead focus on the real life situation within me, so I can keep my inside pleasant and keep being pleasant on the outside as well.

Don't get me wrong thought, I'm still attached to certain things like pain, been very easy to suffer other people's pain since my first trip. I seem to use it as a motivator to give me a purpose. Seeing that pain reminds me that everyone human like me, within we are the same. We just get hijacked by our attachments sometimes.

.Also weed which feels amazing and makes me way more pleasant inside together with meditation, but everything caused from outside has its good and bad aspects. I wonder why we even have cannabinoid receptors in every single culture even where weed shouldn't grow? maybe we can produce it consciously or unconsciously? I dunno.

.And i have a very strong wish of bringing some of the amazing consciousness heightening gifts of mother ayahuasca into my daily experience from within. Have a lovely day my brothers and please share your ways with me o/

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AwareGreatApe

Don't take this as an advice, I just think this guy can give a pleasant perspective on life rather than a philosophy . Wish u the best !

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Thothalitarism

I suffer, because.

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