vicci79

Had a session other night and decided to go back in, started off really dark, can't remember how many blasts I inhaled but felt like I was pinned to the bed, I was aware my body was there but I just could not move, everything was dark just felt like death surrounding me, but i stayed calm. I came out of it and thought a while but then I though fuck it, I'm going back in! What's the worst that can happen! I've seen death so I'm good! So another blast, and I was away! I remember her dragging me through this vail of fractals and colours I became this bright sun, and burning, the whole universe came at me like a rapid river but every time anything got near me I burnt it away, I had became the sun! All the bad, all the torment, sadness, grief just burnt away, I felt like I was reclaiming me, powerful and un afraid, bolts of lightening, chariets charging but I fought them back, everything coming at me was blue, a bright blue, and I felt it to be male, trying to penetrate through me but I fought back, at this point I was screaming "I am god, I am god" I was repelling all darkness and evil that was thrown my way, I fought till he gave up, then came back, I felt I had a power so I was eager to jump straight back in, She was there, telling me there isn't just a third eye but a 4th, it was illuminating at the back Of the head on many beings, and an egylption god appeared in the centre of my view, he opened his mouth and everything around seemed to be inhaled by him including me, I was sucked into the mouth of a god, everything went black! But then a sillohette of a tree started to form, it was a big tree, it had a thick trunk and just before its branches began to sperate there was 1 eye in the centre of the tree It was an awesome thing to witness, but then everything began to fade to fractals and colours again dancing amongst each other, I came out. That wasn't the end I wanted more so I dosed myself up again but I inhaled more than I have ever done I didn't have the fractals or the colours I jumped forward past all that and I remember thinking I've over done it now, but I found my self on the edge of a over hanging cliff, I looked up to see a branch like hand holding an egg that illuminated with lights and colours I've never seen before, this hand and egg where huge, I can't even describe the colours, next to it was a gigantic tower that was rebuilding it self, the tower was full of life, something similar to a scientific movie, but the tower was the universe, I just stood in absolute awe,,, I felt like I was home, this is where I belonged, I just stood and gaped at this amazing sight, it felt like seconds and I was fading back to this world,, I came out devistated, it was the most wonderful thing ever, I just wish I could put in art to show everyone.

Second dmt trip, I went in with a big ego, thinking the first time round showed me it all, not that I under stood it, Anyhow, started off with a 20mg trip, seen water falls, stairs leading to nowhere, water fountains, walk ways intertwined, Egyptian statues, coliseum archways, a massive spiral stair case in the middle with a dragon curled around the hand rails etc, then came out of it, Decided to take another hit, approx 35mg and I no sooner inhaled and I was away, jesters dancing around laughing and mocking me, then a huge squid with tenticles slapping my face to the point I wanted to get out, she was there! She was smirking, even tho I couldnt see her face I knew she had kicked my arse, only thing I could do was just go with it! She wasn't allowing me to go nowhere, this is her domain! Time did not exist, and it felt like forever, I agreed with her in my mind that I thought I was clever, so that's when things began to turn nice again, colours, vibrant colours, fractals all swaying to the sound of the music I had on, I came out feeling embarressed and humiliated ! I know nothing of this world or that, took a long time before I decided I wanted to go back in, but that's another story. A couple of weeks went by and I was scrolling thru pictures of squids and octopus cause I couldn't get it out my head, then eventually I stumbled across one that's really took my breath away, one I would never forget, that of the cthulhu squid, known as the fear of the unknown, I'm now on a journey to push myself, get past that fear! Wish me luck guys

So up until a few month back I hadn't touched any psychodelics at all, but been a bit spiritual and starting to find myself I reconnected with a family member only to find the spiritual side must be genetic, anyhow, an introductuon to dmt came about and I was up for it, no idea why because I didn't really know what the stuff was, just that it gave u an insite to a whole different dimension and I was not disappointed at all,, so fisrt hit started off low approx 16mg, pipe wasn't the greatest but once I started to take that smoke in I could instantly feel my body going to mush,,,, all I could do was lie down and close my eyes,, I had ear phones in with arrival of the birds playing and instantly fractals in neon colours dancing to the rhythm of the music, the swells were amazing, animals bursting from animals, colours everywhere, symbols and patterns upon patterns, was hard to remember most of it and definitely undescribable, I came out as quick as I went in, so waited an hour or so after and took a bigger hit approx 28mg, and fook me I was dragged, and I mean dragged thru a vortex of factal tunnels, there was a woman, I could not see her face but she was kinda lay across a rock with her face in her hands just looking at me with a warm welcome, I felt at home, I kinda said hi but in my head then I was pulled up into space, I looked around and could see planets and stars more than we see with the naked eye, with in a flash I was under water and a huge stingray was just gliding over my head, I was then at the surface of the water and it was almost like crystal, with dolphins jumping in and out but the dolphins were made up of many patterns and other animals, at this point a huge dragon flew over to the right side of me and I could feel the wind from its wings, I was totally in awe,,, then the calmness came and the fractals were dancing again to the music, the swells were amazing, then I came out again knowing life wasn't just about what we see, if that is dying then I am not scared anymore. I can't say the same about the second trip that was darker and scared me for a while, just felt like I was been mocked but think I went in with a big ego second time round and she kicked my arse, but I will update u on that trip soon What's others experiences of first time dmt?