mintus55

Saturday night, I weighed out 12g of dried cubes, broke them into pieces and put them in the French press with a pint of water just off the boil. I fasted all day, so these were going to go down on an empty stomach, but at the last minute I chickened out and put the cafetiere in the fridge to chill.  I was hungover from Friday, and it was quite late, like 11pm, and I didn’t want to spend all night tripping.  I’ve never taken this amount all in one go before, and I wanted to make sure everything was perfect. So I went to bed on an empty stomach, and had the cold mushroom tea for breakfast on Sunday morning.  I ran the tea through a coffee filter before drinking it to catch any bits of mushroom, because cubes turn my stomach sometimes.  The come up started pretty quickly, after about 15 minutes I could feel the effects starting, and I sat back and closed my eyes.  I find myself on a spiral staircase going up, but everything is bright yellow. Immediately, I can feel this trip has a strong DMT vibe, because all the colours are hyper vivid and I’ve got white text boxes bouncing around everywhere.  They don’t have a secret message, just Boom! and Kapow!, like something from a Warhol painting.  When I’m at the top of the stairs, I’m on a skyscraper looking over a city at night crowded with buildings like Manhattan or Hong Kong.  There’s all kind of weird objects flying around, human heads, and shiny things that keep changing colour.  I’m feeling a strong fun and party vibe from the whole place.  Weird heads and who knows what else keep materialising and disappearing all over the place. Then my vision changes, and it’s like I’m looking through other people’s eyes. For a while I see snippets of everyday life from people I don’t know, there’s video images of people doing normal stuff, parking their cars, shopping etc.  Each one lasts only a few seconds, before I move onto another one.  The images dissolve into a mass of fractals, before a new video image pops back out of them.  The thought crosses my mind that maybe I’m experiencing the last thing people see before they die, but fortunately nothing like that happens, it’s just everyday life.   Suddenly I realise that I’m really cold, like absolutely freezing. I move so that I’m sitting on the floor with my back next to the radiator, and this helps, but boy is it cold.  Even my breath is cold – when I breath onto my hands, they get colder, it’s literally ice cold.  Eventually I start to warm up, and I stand up, leaning against the wall with my legs still touching the radiator. The next thing I see is an orangutan, all big hairy and orange.  When I send her some love, all her little babies start to materialise on her, hanging off her arms and body.  They are such little cuties.  The orangutan goes and is replaced by a chimpanzee, and the same thing happens, all her little babies start to appear on her.  I love seeing animals when I’m tripping, and these two are really cool because I’ve never seen them before.  And then I’m on top of the walls of a castle, and there’s a bunch of gargoyles hanging out.  They have wings, black shiny bodies, maybe some claws.  They congratulate me on taking their form.  Being able to fly is pretty cool, but I’m not really sure if gargoyle is a good look for me. We fly around for a bit, and they practice throwing fireballs at me.  The fireballs were really interesting, I could catch them in a trap made of a fractal I made, with all the momentum getting absorbed by the infinite complexity of the fractal.  Last time I tripped, I had things blowing fire at me and the fire just bounced off, but this time I could catch it and make it disappear. The next scene I’m in is something out of Ancient Egypt, with large statues everywhere, and there’s a falcon headed person there (Thoth, presumably). The rules of the game are explained to me – the greatness of every pharaoh is measured by the height of their statue.  I play the game, and stand up tall.  When I inhale and raise my shoulders, I grow tall, and with every breath I’m getting bigger and bigger.  Pretty soon, I’m absolutely enormous, bigger than all of the pharaohs. I’m honestly not too keen on this game, which to me is some kind of childish dick measuring competition, but the feeling of growing quickly is pretty amazing. And then I’m inside a new place, a temple made of white stone with a pool of water in it.  I can’t pin down the architecture, the best I can do is appreciate that there are no arches, just cross beams. The place gets filled with bright blue and white light, and it’s coming from a person that that has long white feathers that are extending from its body.  It’s just amazing to look at, and I start to get really excited, and for the first time in the trip I have to work on calming myself down because I’m worried about getting thrown out of the place I’m in because I can’t keep my shit together.  I calm down and  it sort of acknowledges I’m there, and I start to cough up loads of phlegm which I wipe on myself.  Then I think that it’s disrespectful for me to be wearing my clothes in the presence of this awesome being, especially after I just wiped a load of gunk on them, so I yeet everything off asap. Slowly the light fades and I leave. To this point, the whole trip had an underlying structure, like a series of tests that needed to be passed before moving onto the next one.  I would get buzzing in my ears when one was completed successfully, or would be surrounded by a bunch of text boxes saying Good Job!  All of the little scenes so far were like this, and also I had a few personal realisations along the way that also qualified.  The only one I really remember was that I committed to using my psychedelic experience or knowledge to help others.  But meeting this being was one I didn’t feel I successfully passed. So I decided to take a break, well a cigarette break.  I roll my own, and rolling when you’re tripping is like a coordination test from hell, but one I enjoy doing.  With a job well done, I sit back and enjoy my cigarette.  I can see myself in a bar in some dirt town somewhere, maybe it’s Mexico, at least it’s a place where I don’t speak the language.  I’m holding the lighter in my hand, and because I’ve got my eyes closed again, I just drop it on the floor instead of placing it on my desk.  I imagine myself explaining to the people who are in this bar with me that I dropped the lighter because I don’t need it anymore, and it’s really heavy.  The whole place thinks that this is hilarious and bursts out laughing.  Everybody except this one dude who is standing at the back against the wall, and he takes some real offence to me dropping my lighter.  He fixes me with an evil stare, and won’t stop glaring at me.  This a bit scary, so I leave the bar. And he starts chasing me round the town, I just can’t escape him.  Suddenly, this guy is inside my head, not just following me, and his eyes are burning red.  I’m starting to worry that I’m running into psychosis, because there’s this angry thing in my head that has taken a huge dislike to me, and it feels like it wants to hurt me.  I don’t really want to pick up the lighter, and I don’t know what to do. I’m on the verge of panicking because it’s getting very uncomfortable, so eventually I decide to pick up the lighter.  The thing is still there inside me, but slowly as I calm my mind it starts to fade away.  It feels like a lucky escape, that was not pleasant at all. I calm myself down a bit more by meditating, just trying to empty my mind and focusing on my internal energy.  This makes me go real deep into the trip, and I start to feel my consciousness becoming like a Russian doll, or maybe some kind of crystal.  I’ve experienced something like this before on DMT, so I don’t get too freaked out.  There’s maybe 3 versions of me in there all experiencing the trip, and they also unite to present a single euphoric point of awareness.  This is fun, but it grows and grows and becomes very difficult to control and once again I start to think I’m going to totally lose the plot.  Fortunately, this little psychedelic entity spawns in front of me and starts to teach me some techniques that help me. I get back some control, but I’m going deeper and deeper into this.  My tongue and body start spasming but I stay mentally calm and just try and observe what’s happening.  It’s not an epileptic fit, but I’ve definitely not got any control of certain parts of my body – mostly my tongue and my intestines are getting some kind of crazy work out.  After a minute of this it slowly dies down.  And then my hearing starts to go really crazy.  I get oscillating waves of noise going through my head, it feels like my ears have gone into some kind of spasm, and it’s really shaking my brain.  It’s not too much to bear, but it’s pretty close!  I do start to worry that I could be doing some serious damage to myself, but then the sounds die away and everything is calm. At this point, I’m completely exhausted, and I go and lie down on my bed under the covers.  As I’m there, I experience waves of pleasure roll over me like I’ve never had before.  I feel too weak to even move, but I’m experiencing a state of bliss like I’ve never been close to before.  I can’t even move for at least an hour, maybe more.  It’s like every molecule of my body is in full pleasure mode.  This wasn’t the end game I was looking for, because I feel a bit like a junkie who’s just lying there doing nothing, totally consumed by the high.  I can normally control my trips to some extent by mentally squinting and adjusting things I see, but I’m totally worn out and can’t summon the energy, so I just lie back and let the pleasure wash over me.

There’s a lot to like about liberty caps, and one of these is the delicious flavour.  I drank the dark brown tea and it tasted strong and beefy.  The last time I had liberty caps, it was 6.5g.  This time I only had 5g, plus 20g of fresh cubes. The 6.5g trip had been an absolute classic, with highlights like getting a golden body, watching my body evaporate into stars, and having nymphs dressed in Santa bikinis dancing round me, as well as a bunch of animal spirits who popped in to chill with me.  This time I tried to get to the same dose, but these libs must have been a lot stronger than last year’s harvest. Twenty minutes after drinking the two cups of tea, I can feel the mushrooms start to do their work.  When I close my eyes, I can see a kaleidoscope of different colours.  This is my cue to go and lie down on the sofa in my bedroom, which is the darkest place in my apartment.  As soon as I settle in and shut my eyes again, I’m transported to a place where there is a giant female figure.  I can’t see a whole lot of detail – the place is dark and her body is made of green and blue colours.  She walks off down a corridor and goes through two doors which close behind her with me on the other side.  I’m a little disappointed by this because I wanted to go through, and instead I go down a stairway, or maybe the floor just rises up over me, it’s hard to tell the difference. As I’m going down, the colours change from blue and green and everything takes on a dark red colour.  Suddenly I’m walking around what looks like a fantastic dungeon.  Every surface is covered in metal spikes and there are chained up beasts everywhere.  There are a few serpents with 5 heads that hiss wildly at me, and fortunately they are chained to the wall.  There’s also a monstrous dog with a muzzle made of metal that is covering its mouth.  Suddenly, maggots start pouring out from the cracks in the walls.  Literally everything I look at turns to maggots.  This place certainly gets a 10 / 10 for creepiness, and I start to think that maybe I’m in the underworld.  Maggots aren’t my favourite thing, but the understanding that maggots are really just the larval forms of insects stops me from freaking out too much.  These maggots could turn into beautiful flying insects one day, and sure enough when I look closer a lot of them are actually caterpillars.  There is someone in this place with me.  Why are all these psychedelic entities so huge?  I can only see part of a hand, really just a finger that is bony and elongated with far too many joints for it to be human.  I observe to the owner that the finger joints look like they have a bad case of rheumatoid arthritis, and the nail at the end is a particularly unhealthy shade of yellow.  It reminds me a bit of a dragon’s claw.  Maybe I was being rude, I don’t know, but the reaction to my gentle jokes is that the intensity of what I’m seeing ramps up.  The monstrous dog loses its muzzle, and is snarling away, and the maggots pour more violently from every surface.  I point out that this isn’t really scary because the dog is chained up, and most of the maggots are caterpillars. I know when I’m tripping really hard, because at some point all the surfaces get covered with octopus tentacles, writhing away impossibly quickly.  Right on cue, everything is covered in octopus tentacles, the maggots turn into tentacles which then turn into colourful fractals.  And then I leave this place. I adjust my mental focus and rise up out from under the ground, and I’m in a forest that has mushrooms sprouting from every surface.  I don’t recognise the type of mushroom, they are brown with white gills, a bit like shiitake. I hang out in the wood for a while, looking at the mushrooms popping off everywhere.  The thought crosses my mind that mushrooms in general are maybe not a strong enough psychedelic, and I announce to the wood that I am going to stop growing and eating mushrooms, because it’s not worth my time.  So I leave the place.  At the edge of the tree line, there’s a fence which I climb over, and I spend a bit of time with a mushroom that is smoking a long pipe on the other side of the fence. At this point, I must have been thinking that the mushrooms were wearing off.  But psychedelics do build in waves, and I had only seen the first ripple.  I start to feel sick, so I open my eyes and stumble to the bathroom.  I dry heave and nothing comes out, but the feeling of sickness passes.  As soon as I’m back on my sofa, I can feel energy running all over my skin.  I can feel my guts twitching and rearranging, and there’s something floating above me directing all the energy.  Now I realise that I have taken a really strong dose, and that I should take some precautions to stay safe.  Fortunately, over the last few days I had done quite a lot of meditation, so I’m feeling like I’ve got good control of my mind.  But meditation isn’t much protection from the incredible excess of energy that is rushing through my body. So I dig out a clean white duvet cover and get inside.  I’ve also got a couple of smooth river stones that I use for meditation and that keep me grounded, so I find these and have one in each hand. The stones do their thing and keep me calm.  I feel a trance start to take over my body, my limbs become very heavy. And it takes a lot of effort to move them.  I’m now standing outside a place that’s made of impossibly bright light and I try to move up the path to go inside.  But there’s something stopping me from going inside. I realise that it’s the woollen jumper I’m wearing that’s stopping me, so I take it off. And then I’m in.  This place is a palace made of bright light, there’s high towers and large buildings.  A temple on wheels comes towards me and standing on the threshold there’s a cat like goddess. I have met this individual before, and after a bit of online research I decided she has some similarities to the Egyptian goddess Bastet, but really who knows.  Some of the cats she presents as are definitely South American and not African, e.g. ocelots and pumas.  She waves to me and getting some acknowledgement feels good. I drift over to what seems to the centre of this place, and am asked if I accept the challenge.  I hadn’t really expected a challenge, but I readily agree and hand over a list of rewards I would like for completing the challenge.  My list gets a bit ridiculous - I want to win the lottery every time I play (I always bring up winning the lottery when I’m tripping, because it’s a good reality check when I’m sober because it clearly is never going to happen), I want eternal protection for all of my family members and for anyone I can think of. Also no retribution to be taken against the earth and all the living beings on it.  Any entity breaking this needs to be expelled from the observable universe.  I keep expanding the list, and eventually whatever I’m talking to grows tired of my demands and decides to teach me a lesson.  The lesson is going to come in the form of ripping my soul from my body.  Fortunately for me, my soul can not be detached.  Whatever is trying to do this, it does make a good attempt.  There’s a column of gold light streaming out of the top of my head, but no matter how hard it pulls, the gold column stays firmly attached to the inside of my head.  I’m not surprised by this, because even when I’ve vaped 100mg of DMT on my mesh vape I can’t get into hyperspace.  This annoyed me in the past, but I’m glad it has come in useful now. Then I have to fight off another attack.  There’s some kind of silver being that starts flying around me, and it covers me in jets of fire trying to burn me up.  Fortunately, I appear to be fire proof, so the attack fades out without doing anything to me.  A horde of warriors appears to take me on, their bodies are a mass of black fractals which stand out against the overwhelming brightness of this place.  I’m able to smooth put their bodies so the fractals are gone and they look a bit like Darth Vader.  I’m really don’t like Star Wars, but this does inspire me to send them to a galaxy far far away a long time ago, and that seemed to work. This whole experience was very intense, and what had kept me focussed was the two stones I mentioned earlier.  At some point I had placed them on either side of my neck, and the cool touch to my skin kept me grounded.  The stones also gave me a connection to a cave deep inside the earth, where thousands of years ago people had performed a ritual and I was able to tap into this to give me mental strength.  I thanked the foresight of these amazing humans - without them I don’t know what would have happened. And then I was transported back down to earth, to a version of the field where I had picked the liberty caps.  I could feel energy flowing up out of the ground into me.  I tried to unpick what had just happened, and realised that I had probably been a bit foolish.  I had no idea what challenge I had accepted, or how to complete it, and I had managed to seriously annoy a lot of somethings.  I laughed at my own situation, every way I analysed it, I had done stupid things.  I had put my family at risk, and the whole world.  I had accidentally performed strange types of magic, without knowing what the consequences could be.  This whole trip had been a huge error, and it was still getting stronger.  I had literally no idea how long it was going to last or what was going to happen next.  I felt as though I had stumbled into a shamanic initiation ordeal by complete accident, and had literally no idea how to proceed. So I decided to send some blessings to the earth and to all my family members and people I knew.  I went to the top of a hill and could feel mushrooms growing out of my body.  I sent out the good vibes and I did start to relax and feel a bit less helpless.  I come from a very big family, with 10 siblings and maybe 20 nephews and nieces, so I had a pretty long list to get through, especially when you add in the spouses etc.  I was part way through when a female entity appeared inside my duvet cover, and starting sending me sexual energy.  This was quite exciting, and I readily removed my trousers.  I couldn’t help myself, the power of the eroticism was so strong.  But I soon realised that she had interrupted me from what I was doing, and in fact I couldn’t actually remember what I was doing.  Every time I got close, she would whisper in my ear and distract me. It took a while for me to remember what I was doing, but finally I did.  I had a long list of people to go through and boy was it hard remembering who all the people on the list were.  But as soon as I got back on track, the erotic entity disappeared, disappointed that she could not interrupt me. Every time I sent a blessing out, I could see that person gasping, and shooting smoke out of their mouth. I felt really relieved that I had got through that without getting side-tracked, and for the first time I was able to relax.  I entered a really deep trance and was transported to another place.  This place had boulders made of shining blue light and I was urged to try and merge my consciousness with the light.  I slowed my mind down as much as possible, and tried to reach out.  I can’t really tell if I was successful, but at some point it felt like I had become the mind of the universe.  This sounds like a great experience, but really it was almost unbearable. I was literally unable to function as a human being and I really felt like I needed to rewrite the laws of physics so that I could continue to exist.  My mind was overloading on mathematical calculations, dominating all my thoughts.  It wasn’t like doing calculus, more like I was weaving together the fractal shapes that were dominating my vision.  I slowed down time just so that I could retain my sanity, all the way down to the Planck unit.  This worked really well, because I could start to think again, but I couldn’t breathe at all.  Every time I had to take a breath, I had to unfreeze time, and then freeze it again immediately afterwards. This was really uncomfortable, because I was lying still and then gasping for breath and then becoming still again. The last time I smoked changa, I was shown a vision of what life was, and what the phenomenon of consciousness means for the structure of reality.  The mechanisms that create consciousness are based on the laws of physics and mathematics, even if us dumb humans can’t figure out what they are.  And there’s a chance that with enough computation power, consciousness could be simulated by calculations.  But the reality is that it is not possible to build a machine that is powerful enough to do the calculations.  After all, life itself probably uses some form of quantum computation which is an order of magnitude greater than any computer.  If only we could harness the power of individual particles or photons to achieve this, then every living being would be able to exist outside its physical form. And at this point I became a little obsessed with turning myself into pure information so I could do the necessary calculations.  My brain was stuck in overdrive, and I was still slowing down time to try and think clearly.  I made a plan on how my body would cease to exist, literally evaporate into an ideal Platonic space, which is somewhere where only pure mathematical ideas exist.  I had a plan to become the first artificial intelligence that has ever been made. This all made perfect sense to me at the time, and I felt like I was making progress.  But then my mind literally gave up.  I had a choice between breathing or thinking and couldn’t do either.  I felt I had reached the answer, but my brain just wasn’t wired correctly to get it out.  The information was somewhere inside me, but I needed a new architecture of my mind to be able to release it.  I could still form normal thoughts, but the wonderous insights had got stuck and I had no way to express them. It was at this point I collapsed into bed, totally exhausted.  I came round maybe 30 minutes later, and fortunately my mind was back to normal.  I still had residual visual effects, but I was firmly back in reality. The whole trip might sound a bit scary and negative, but it was quite enjoyable.  I haven’t managed to capture the intense beauty of everything I saw and felt, or the sensations of spiritual power that kept getting stronger and stronger throughout my journey.  I got a lot of joy from seeing things and places that I have never seen, even the scary monsters had their own magnificence.  Inevitably, some of the chronology of the trip gets messed up, and I’m not sure where to put the little rat that was hiding out in my room.  I asked it why it was there and it said have you seen the size of the teeth on the monsters that are flying around outside. One thing that really surprised me was how well this trip integrated with my last few experiences smoking changa and DMT.  I tried to write up the trip where I ate shrooms then smoked changa, but the details got lost before I could finish it. But this journey has brought them back so I’ll be finishing that report off in a few days.  Another time I smoked changa, I felt like I was recreating the conditions for the start of the next universe by creating a perfect balance out of things from the current reality, only to be snapped out of it by a hand touching me on my shoulder.  Of course, there was no one there and I was by myself, but that experience really helped my deluded and frustrated attempts to rewrite the laws of physics this time round.