I wonder how many people live alone in apartments.I wonder how many people have or will commit suicide in thier homes during this quarantine.I wonder how long their bodies will remain unfound after th... View MoreI wonder how many people live alone in apartments.I wonder how many people have or will commit suicide in thier homes during this quarantine.I wonder how long their bodies will remain unfound after this is all over...
We can change the things we dont like in our lives friend, sometimes it seems impossible but sometimes it takes an immense amount of effort. Change is fucking hard, but necessary if we want to evolve in life and be where we wanna be. More than happy to chat with ya if you ever would like to NewfieCa... View MoreWe can change the things we dont like in our lives friend, sometimes it seems impossible but sometimes it takes an immense amount of effort. Change is fucking hard, but necessary if we want to evolve in life and be where we wanna be. More than happy to chat with ya if you ever would like to NewfieCaps !! Not gonna start giving you a bunch of advice if you dont want it haha i just mean if you wanna chat much love fellow Canadian!!
This is something a lot of people struggle with and it only seems to get brought up and discussed seriously once someone leaves us unfortunately... my partners co worker committed suicide the other day and he was only 24-25. His wife is around the same age, and had 2 children. Now the workplace is t... View MoreThis is something a lot of people struggle with and it only seems to get brought up and discussed seriously once someone leaves us unfortunately... my partners co worker committed suicide the other day and he was only 24-25. His wife is around the same age, and had 2 children. Now the workplace is talking about how important it is after the fact... so im glad someone brought this up. This is a plave we can talk about this kind of thing openly and who knows, maybe we can let a few people know they are loved enough, and mayter enough and help them or steer them in the direction of some positive change in their life.
When i was 17, i tried to commit suicide with my mothers muscle relaxants and a lot of alcohol. I was very angry with my father who was physically and sexually abusive and i just wanted it to stop and i wanted him to find me that way, and i wanted him to suffer internally as much as i had. I didnt think it would ever end, so i tried to end it myself. I thought id die in my sleep, turns out i just vomited profusely and slept an entire day and felt more hungover than anything.
I am incredibly grateful today, at 30 years old, that i was NOT successful. And it took me, literlaly up til just last year to start getting my shit together and figuring out what makes me happy in a job and with a partner. Now my dad was out of the picture (still alive but i left) when i was 25, and had some good times but i fell back into a rabbit hole of feeling like existing, working 2 min wage jobs to get by. I unravelled and fell apart completely mentally. I knew i had to make a change. I went back to school to become a CCA, which is qorking long term care, and now for the first time, when i go to work i am actually happy with what i am doing.
It takes a swift kick in your own ass sometimes... and sometimes a financial struggle and a half, but we can make necessary changes to our lives to better ourselves.
If i could go back, id hold my 17 year old self and say, it will get better, even though it feels like it wont!
I love you guys, i mean that. I love people, we are all loved, we are all important, and we all matter!