DMT & Body Pain (Microdose)

(Edit) What I learned is that your physical body needs to be let go while you take DMT. If you have a physical medical condition that causes you pain you can end up having a "bad" trip or a stressful trip. I don't necessarily believe in bad trips. Physical pain can really rip you back to earth on DMT and shouldn't be taken lightly. Here is my take on my physical medical condition I have involving DMT:So I suffer from muscle spasms from a car accident I had many years ago including permanent neck pain. I haven't been able to really break through on DMT using a dream tank. It's not because my mind wasn't ready but with every hit I would take immense pain would strike between my shoulder blades, my side and up along my head. I would see little jangly goblin faces laughing at me through pipes, I saw many tiny jumbled entities, dreaming while awake I even experienced entities outside of my head which was quite the experience to say the least. These entities acted similar to "reapers." They would distort my music, they would make my phone go insane (even turning off) ect. One friendly and sad entity told me it liked to talk to whales. I slowly realized my back would vibrate every time I would take a hit of the tank. My body was taking on far too much so easily. I would touch my back and feel it nearly pulsating. I started feeling down about myself. My boyfriend could easily slip into worlds beyond his imagination even saying that he met Gemini (he is a gemini himself). I started getting a sense that someone in the DMT world has been attempting to contact me in some way. I started hallucinating people walking by me, my cats walking past my feet, objects glitching ect while I wasn't on DMT. My boyfriend described the feeling of having four arms and told me it was really the goddess that protected him. I began to try to understand (or at least pay attention) to these messages I was getting while I microdosed DMT and while I was hallucinating during the day. I noticed that I didn't "fall asleep" like my boyfriend would. I was always too awake. I felt like my physical body and the pain along with it was weighing my spirit down. I would nearly get cold sores from the physical stress. I began numbing my lips with Oral Pain Relief before any DMT attempts. All the while I would feel ridiculed by the goblin faces grinning with big noses (similar to the Courage the Cowardly Dog mask). But I could always feel a strange sense of empathy for myself. I felt like there was an entity watching and listening giving me vibes. Alone I play music and dance in a chair with my arms swaying even while sober. It gave me a sense of self I hadn't had in quite some time. The more I danced the more I saw behind my eyes. On DMT I felt so connected with my spirit at times. But the nausea and pain would get too much. So I began to try to organize myself more. What little control I had over my life began to seem so disorganized. I painted my kitchen a beautiful sky blue, I cleaned more, I exercise everyday (especially with stretching bands), breathing exercises were a must. I can only listen to music the DMT likes if any at all. Eventually I saved a little in my tank and the other day I danced for the first time since I organized my house and began exercising my back more. I braced myself but I didn't feel any pain. I even saw glimpses of a gold goddess like figure looking down at me. I am not sure if she is protecting me or sending me the signals but I have a hunch that it's the entity contacting me. While I dance I feel the four arms gently falling in unison. The whole vibe of my kitchen was really nice. I think the goddess approves of the blue paint. ☁️Eventually I felt the muscle spasms and the gentle feeling of someone asking me not to take another hit of the vape. I know I'll break through one day soon but I think she's telling me to work on my physical body so I won't be so worried about it in the future. I can't thank her enough for this motivation. I'm even meditating occasionally.