psilofreak
by on December 7, 2020
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I prepared a tea from the mushrooms. Prior to drinking the tea I put some strong cannabis tincture I made under my tongue and I also smoked a joint of high cbd hemp. The cannabis was for keeping nausea down, because I knew shrooms can upset the stomach. After I finished my hemp joint I drank the tea. Normally when I did micro doses I ate the shrooms after drinking the tea, but this time I left the shrooms to eat later. I paced the floor slowly, waiting for the trip to start.
After about 30 minutes I started getting some visuals. No trippy colors and fractals, just like objects in the room warping and warbling. Before I knew it, I was gone. Idk where I went. I didn't get a lot of visuals or sounds. It was really more like a void. I remember having moments of looping thoughts but they didn't last long. I also remember I would sort of come and go, where I'd realize my room and know I'm there and I'm me, but then I'd be gone again. It felt like just pure awareness wo concepts of any kind. I couldn't dissociate my way through the "high" or trip like I generally do with other things. I was forced to just be in the trip. I also remember having moments where I had a *seriously* strong craving for a cigarette, even though I quit smoking 4 years ago. I found the craving incredibly odd. And I couldn't do anything about it, I just had to be in the craving.
The whole trip lasted about 3 hours. Towards the end of the trip I realized I had kept pacing my floor the entire time, I never stopped. Also my hand had been shaking the entire time too. You ever see someone sit and bounce 1 knee real fast? Like that, but in my hand; just shaking, tapping my outer thigh-- for 3 hours! By the time my trip was over, I clocked over 20K steps on my Fitbit. I was hoping someone could explain the floor-pacing and hand-shaking thing. I always imagined tripping as relatively inactive, just sitting or lying down and experiencing whatever happens. But I was up moving around, even though I was completely gone. I have no idea how I didn't bump into things or trip and fall.
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