A lot I can't explain. Some I can.

I posted this in the feed and was asked to add to trip reports! I'd be more than happy to so here it is! I have yet to post anything yet, so I suppose I'll just introduce myself with a bit about my DMT/psychadelic use. I began my psychonaut career at 21, now 25. Started with lots of lsd and a couple unpleasant mushroom trips. My s/o was going on a roadtrip to pick up his friend a few hundred miles away. When he arrived his friend greeted him with the surprise of a lifetime. Dmt, for which we had been researching but not looking for. He rolled a dab in the dmt crystals and blasted off, but that story is not mine to tell. Fast forward, friend stays with us for a week back home. I get to take the trip back with them. To my utmost surprise they had saved some for me. I take the same dab rolled in the crystals. I get instant visuals. I close my eyes and lay back. I see the Gates, but they are too far. I try to focus, they seem to be getting further away. I'm stuck. I open my eyes a minute or two pass. I feel like a million pounds were lifted and I felt like i was glowing, radiant, warm.. I am grateful. I accept there is a reason as to why I was not allowed past the gates. Time moves on. I have a couple high dose mushroom trips. 8 grams Amazonion. Strange.. The 10 gram GT trip.. I did not know that one could "breakthrough" on mushroom. I can hardley elaborate and make sense with spoken words, but I will try.I felt centered with dark on one side of the room and light on the other. I intruoduced the trip with a chakra alignment video on YouTube. Once i was thru the come up, everything in the room was irrelevant. Almost like i was here in the same room but everything was taken over by the visuals. Fiber/wirelike strands of pure color, every color, all at once filled the space that was once my living room. Objects around my ceased to exist. It was my partner and i on the floor, in utter awe of what I'm experiencing. My partner was moved to tears from seeing me expierence such a profound breakthrough. I have since wondered if it may be time to go back to DMT. I have learned so much since I had last tried it. I can admit, I was ignorant to a lot when i had that chance. Been doing a lot of research on extracting my own. I know I CAN do it. But does that mean I should? I dont want to push my boundaries, should I let Dimitri find me or should i make the jump for myself? Postive Vibes & Love to all.Edit/Add: (Bare with me as I do my best to describe something no substance had done before) During the 10 g GT mushroom trip, at my peak I had closed my eyes for what seemed like the first time since the trip began. It was so vivid it did not seem like I had even closed my eyes. I was zooming through a hollowed out wooden log. There was moss and tiny plants growing all over. I I noticed spots that had been rotted away. It went on until i opened my eyes. The single most beautiful expierence of my life yet.