Matt Gon
by on July 6, 2020
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So i have a brother who im not really close with but during that time we were mending relationships. He was always the type to say "i got shrooms" and never answer but during that time he was finally coming through with what he said. I had cubes from him before but this time he told me he has shrooms that looked like penises, i laughed it off and told him to bring me a 1/4, which he obliged. I remember him telling me to be careful because these were extra strong..... Ok... So i ate about 2.5, 2 hours later i had a nice trip going, me and the wife where having a grand ol time when i told her im going to eat the cap that weighed 2.5gs. The moment i downed it the 2.5 i ate before peaked and i remember thinking, FUCK... However i enjoyed the peak of the previously 2.5 and had the most intense expierence of pleasure with my wife while my eyes were closed, fractals of rainbow colors fueled my mind. I still say it was the best thing i ever expierenced besides my daughter being born. When that was over we layed together with our heads touching. I visualed of souls coming out of our heads and swirling into one. While this was happening we laughed until we cried. (She said she was visualizing the same thing the next morning.)While our minds were melded together I remeber hearing her voice in my head as clear as day. I told her to raise her hand if she could hear me in her head, she raised it instantaneous. When that happened we once again laughed until we cried. Intense sadness swelled inside of me as i visualized all the bad things we did to each other. I looked over at her and told her "i forgive you" while simultaneously forgiving myself. We then closed our eyes as the 5gs hit me in totality. I was transported to ancient aztek pyramids where i native elder woman with long white hair had me join the session as she chanted the same phrase over and over again. At that point things became a little hazy. When i came to a point a could remember again, My body was completely gone and i was floating in an endless void. I remember feeling "Matt" which is me, was gone and that i had died, becoming one with the 2 entities that represent male and female. They were a silverish color and were somewhat fluid but maintained a humanoid shape. Everytime time someone died i remeber the beings hugging and crying, they would say " I'm sorry but this had to happen for us to expierence life." I remember thinking i was all the pain and sorrow of the human race split into 2 entities. This went on for some time. Then i started slightly coming to where my ego could slip worlds in like" fuck, im stuck forever, i died". I also remeber saying if the sun comes up I'm ok. I then slipped into an infinite loop of repeating numbers in my head, hearing my dog bark, hearing a car start and hearing my house creak, occasionally sneaking in the sentence about the sun. I started to feel like i was forgetting to breathe. I'd gasp for air and try to sit up for atleast an hour but it felt like a force kept pulling me down. I even remeber thinking my wife was dead and i was in hell because she was there but i could never have her. I tried pinching her multiple times but i just didnt have the strength. And just like that the sun came out and i was able to stand up and use the bathroom, although still tripping. I layed back down for a few hours. We woke up and went to get our child. I looked at her and said "WOW!, we were in each others head last night" she said "yup" and we laughed.
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