My First APE Experience 2 grams or so

Yesterday was probably the most intense mushroom trip I've ever had. first time I've tried Albino PE. Holy shit. It was roughly 2 grams that i steeped in my ginger tea and it felt like 6 or 7 of the cubes I am used to. There was a point i briefly had a thought "Damn i should have just taken some acid, this is way too intense." Because I was having this indirect telepathic(?) Dialogue with the mushroom which also included some sort of squeegee of my mind and like a wringing out of my light body(?) Not sure those descriptors do it justice, but because between the waves I was attempting to do my normal "get shit done" type thing since i had not planned well and I was coming back from changing clothes so that i could get the ducks (they are almost old enough to not need the heating lamp) out of their cage for some sunlight/ foraging/time in the water. I had that thought, and immediately regretted it. My stomach twisted up and the nausea brought me to my knees as if to say " You dare insult me? " I apologized lol but it was too late. I fell onto my back from my knees from the nausea and needed to check on the kiddo for whatever reason who was across the house with her mom. But i couldnt even stand up. I felt like an inch worm scrunching my way across the house between holding back puke and groaning.i finally made it onto my feet and stumbled to the room that she was watching "Barbie Touch of Magic" and peaked in. I could tell she was pretty out of it. She felt my trip i have no doubt. She was like touching her face and shit and her eyes were wider than usual. She kept looking at her hands and shit like she'd never seen them before lol its hilarious NOW but at the time I'm thinking damn I'm a horrible father why do i have day trips, when I'm effecting my daughter like this? And i realize I didnt actually dose her or anything but our bond is obviously strong enough, this is not the first time she has been effected. Once I took too much MDA mixed with MDMA and THE NEXT DAY, when I'm not even feeling it anymore, she was acting funny for a good 4 or 5 hours. " i feel funny," and "why did dada do this to me? I dont like this"That was the only time that she somehow fucking connected the dots that something I had done was effecting her.That was the worst time, this time thankfully she didnt seem to mind or even consciously notice. And THAT time I believe i technically overdosed. I took 75mg of MDA and 75 of MDMA which is waay too much MDA especially with the MDMA. I'm new to MDA though and didnt know better...but MDMA has more to do with oxytocin so I'm sure that played a part in why.But anyways, after the first 2.5 hours of non-temporal time, finally i took some full spectrum cannabis tincture as well as a digestive enzyme and as much water as I could get down, and finally the trip mellowed out some right as the eclipse began. I took a picnic blanket and laid out in the yard with my eclipse glasses. That was fucking amazing.It was fun watching the sun get covered slowly and listening to peaceful music, but the totality hit and instantly the air went from almost hot (80deg F or so) to very cool almost a chill (probably close to 70 F) and there was a dew in the air and on my blanket. It felt really nice. A welcome break from the hest that I'm pretty sure would have burned me had i stayed out the rest of the time. The sky went dark and I CLEARLY saw Jupiter and Venus. Beautiful and wow the dance the moon and sun did in those 3 and a half minutes was unreal. I couldnt stop laughing this deep laugh from my gut almost. After totality ended I went inside and spent tine with my wife, massaged her shoulders and then went to play Barbie with my daughter. A close friend called me randomly and we chatted for 10 minutes before i was summoned to finish my game of Barbie lol then I made poocorn and cleaned my kitchen. Tripping eyes always reveal some of the dirtiness that I usually can let myself get away with, so I kept thinking to myself, "how can i live like this?! I need to get my shit together" and started cleaning xD we have a gnat problem in the house right now which added to the issue and feeling of uncleanness. Spray bottle of soapy water is the perfect weapon for gnats, but they multiply fast as shit and its almost hard to keep up.I want to work towards the organization that Shaboy has got going with breathwork and a clean house and eyecover and Gordo TEK Trip playlists and shit to help integration, but I'm at a really strange place in my life and I take what i can get these days. I barely even have time for trip reports nowadays Lolol I soo long for some order in my life, it is chaos everywhere! That being said, I enjoyed walking around my house and yard and seeing these things with my sensitivities on blast, because it allowed me to take a look at my habits and what i dont like and What i can do to change it. For instance, my daughter watches way too much tv! Because my wife and i both work and I havent gotten a schedule type situation going, I'm juggling just to get her fed and still trying to give her some company when i can while also working mostly full time and have little like breakout lessons on things she asks me about, you know? Like she will come and talk to me while I'm working and ask me a question and if its normal 4 YO bullshit I'll just acknowledge the question and she will move on and tell me something else or I'd be silly with her and make her see different perspectives sometimes, but if she asks me something about letters or numbers or words or time or the chickens or like laundry or like i burned myself with some hot oil making fries and that was science class letting her see my pain but mostly letting her see how it heals over time and telling her how the human body has magic in it and if you support the body and mind that you support the magic in your bodies ability to heal anything. She doesnt always pay full attention, but sometimes i can see the wheels turning in her little head.So i need to get a good rhythm and teach her to read already and then it will make schooling her a bit easier.Another example was while i spent time with wifey, she was showing me funny or interesting things she has found on Instagram and one time she scroll past something i asked her to go back to, it was just some guys jawline and the background of the picture that caught my eye and it looked like it had some glow to it telling me to pay attention to this. I won't geek out on that here, I'll make a separate post, but it's called jaw shark. Its a facial restructuring muscle building thing that was/is on sale for their 5th anniversary. I bought the wholetraining package for 40% off. Spent $60 and got free shipping. Excited to start it!