Soulvision1988

I smoked dmt for like the 30th or more time two days ago I did some very pure amazing stuff better than I have ever had, but some very weird stuff happened in the trip. I died in front of my family and they were screaming and crying nooooo nooo nooo holding me and shaking me and I was sad to see their sadness and was trying to tell them it was ok but they couldn't hear me. I died and felt so calm and relax and I watched it all! Has anyone experienced anything like this? Then I came to and the room was the most beautiful colors and I could move them with my hands. I am just wondering what this death means I watched myself die and it was so intense. Is that an nde??