Gage

This was something else. I went into this trip thinking the same as last time I’m ready for some waves of euphoria just like 5 seeds.but 10 was a whole new story. Boy did I think wrong. The first thing seconds after chewing the seeds was IMMENSE head pain. I then forced myself to throw up which made everything go way faster. I proceeded to take a shower which is when I started getting waves of pleasure up to the point of amazement. I thought I had peaked 10minutes after chewing these. I had a rude awakening coming. I was laying down just enjoying the feeling until it got more intense. I didn’t know what to think so I proceeded to call my brother who had done this before as well. I ended up throwing up so much that I emptied my stomach but I did not feel this until later. I was stunned on the visuals I was getting. Everything stretching and so close up yet so far at the same time. I was lost for words. At this point I was still on the phone with my brother ranting about how awesome this was. Then I began to feel an urge to look in the mirror in the bathroom down the hall. My brother told me just stay in youre room and look a I little bit later. But I could not stop my self I had to see myself. I went on to the bathroom set my phone down and when I turned those lights on and saw myself. Everything changed. My life had just gotten pulled out of me and I was a body roaming in my bathroom. My ears began to ring and my head filled with clutter full noises making everything impossible to focus on. I SPRINTED back to my room in terror of what I had just become. Sitting in my bed empty. I began to realize what happened. I lost my personality. I lost all love for everything I had ever done and everyone I’ve ever known. The bob Marley in the background just wasn’t making me happy I had no emotions. At this point I didn’t feel scared or happy or even sick. I was just lost. My brother then caught on knowing something was wrong and tried to calm me down. I kept saying”I don’t feel right I don’t like anything anymore not even you or skating or bob Marley family work nothing. I then immediately began to think I will never be the same I’m gonna need therapy my family will never understand me.and that’s when the pain came. With my stomach being 100% empty no stomach bile no seeds nothing I began to hiccup aggressively. As I hiccuped it mixed with a burp which opened my throat so I could feel air in my stomach and this is when I felt like this was turning into a bad trip. I started to panic telling my brother somethings wrong these aren’t normal hiccups. He told me you’ve puked drink a bunch of water so you’re body can replenish and get some stomach bile and water in there. Still freaking out about my personality gone and my body cramps I began to think what if I have to go to hospital what will I do. He persisted telling me you won’t feel right until the trip is over this isn’t you you’re tripping. I began to calm down after this trying to take deep breaths and calm myself down. And then it hit me. These waves of gratitude as my personality came back I suddenly realized I’m talking to my brother and that I have my walls painted how I like them. And that I LOVE bob Marley. I proceeded to realize what body I was actually in and became as grateful as ever. The next morning I woke up with quite a stomach ache but I couldn’t get the smile off my face I went to my parents and just felt amazing knowing that they’re back and that I will not lose them yet. And today has been a body rejuvenation and mental trip of pondering how lucky I am to have what I have in my life. The lesson that LSA has taught me is that no matter what goes on in youre life you’re lucky to be who you are and so unique and some people might not like it but that’s ok because we all have to be different or else nobody can be different. Even while I’m typing this I’m so grateful to be able to have a understanding community who can help me out in times of need. Lesson learned and if I ever feel as if I’m going down a wrong path in life 10-20-30 years from now I’m gonna look back on this and just remember what if I lost it all. I hope you guys enjoy reading my experience. Peace and blessings yall