21:45:03 GMT-0700 (MST)

Just hangin with my amigo :3Hello you humongous babies,Its been over a year since I've made a post here and it hasn't been for the best issues friends. Over the past couple of years I had been severely struggling with ketamine abuse, would stay up for days on end, give away 500 bucks a day to chase a hole, piss blood for weeks at a time, just to shoot a quarter ounce in 4 hours for a wavy buzz. I ended up going to rehab for six weeks which was basically pointless, just had the majority of my rights stripped from me. I got out and it took me 3 days to start up again. Fortunately I eventually stopped when I got the worst UTI imaginable from the shite pissing chunks of k and clotted blood every minute, literally. Unfortunately in the process I ended up losing both of my jobs as an exotic dancer due to sleep deprivation. Huge loss for me as i got used to an expensive lifestyle I really shouldn't have had. My close friend crashed his car and was jobless and homeless so i let him crash with me in my tiny 1 bed hotel room. Being in the same room with someone that doesnt fall asleep until 12pm doesnt do ya much good. He's a fentanyl addict and sadly I've had some issues with the substance as well. So I basically traded out one substance for the other. I'm now at the point of where i share a house with 3 other people one of which is a person i met a players club and is perving on me all the fuckin time not to mention hes 40 yrs older than me. Im happy i have a roof over my head at least. Im smoking 40 blues a day and suckin dick for it too. My other roommate (my buddy who i mentioned before) is a hard-core addict too and i really need to fuckin stop. NA doesnt do shit for me i dont believe in any of their philosophys all i hear from anyone is keep your head up your strong keep a strong mind stay positive Yada yada yada so basically this is my cry for help dmt world how do i get myself out of this shithole im stuck in right now