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June 27, 2021 5:49 pm

Random ramble from a nagging thought.

When to know it's calling. Does it call?

I've tried dmt 3 times after pondering on it for a couole years. I learned about it from you tube. The rabbit hole went in ... View MoreRandom ramble from a nagging thought.

When to know it's calling. Does it call?

I've tried dmt 3 times after pondering on it for a couole years. I learned about it from you tube. The rabbit hole went in this direction. Joe rogan podcasts and motivational speech podcasts go to spiritual videos line open your reality and sick then philosophers and at the same time scientific vids on the subject. I was excited and curious to try it. Just like many of us we have questions and a natural desire to seek answers.

I was wondering which path to take to aquire it. Make it or how it finds me. Then a lil while ago it was decriminalist somewhere local. I went there where advertised legally and got 10g of shrooms and a 500mg cart of dmt.

So the first time was on a Saturday night. Earlier that day i took 3.5g of shrooms and had an amazing hike. I got home and chilled then around 10pm i was in a very relaxed state. I lit some incense changed the color of the lightbulbs in the room and was in another you tube dive in dmt. I figured my mind was good and figured now is a good time.

I took a long hit from the cart, pinched my nose to not cough it out and repeated. I ended up taking 5 hits because i wanted to make sure it was enough for a full effect. So, right away i heard that ringing in the back of my head. Kind of tendonitis but different. Then i felt heavy yet light at the same time. Like a separation. I'm laying on the couch and with my feet crossed it felt like they were melting or morphing into each other. My vision felt blurryish because the light from the tv was no longer just in the tv. I took 5 pages of notes somehow on a tablet. Its messy and jibberish that I'm embarrassed to go read. But in my mind i had visions. Like very strong lucid dreams but i was awake and get so far inside my head this was real. It lioked like a pharoh land scape with all i can describe was the color laser gold. I could see visions from in my head of the fractals descibed many times. I knew i wasnt allowing myself get the full effect because of the notes i took. I put the tablet down and just laid there more. The next vision was very odd. It was a giant coiled boa constrictor. I didnt feel he was going to harm me. But i really felt i annoyed it so i came out after that because i felt i wasnt welcomed but was ae to reapect it at the same time.

What i wrote in the tablet showed there was a lot more to that trip.

The second time i really messed up. It was a few days later and i had a bad day at work. I wanted to eacape reality. I got home, didnt prep my mind and abused it. Laid on my couch thinking take me away. Thats when it went south. The color of everything shifted to a pale green color like from a movie. I found myself walking around my home like im a ghost. Yet, im still laying down on my couch. But thats not what made it bad what made it bad was the overwhelming feeling of emptiness. It was like being dead and lingering. After i came back from that i said no kore until i do it the right way and didnt touch it for a couple months.

The third and last time i tried it was a coue weekends ago. I'm sitting in my recliener and looked down and seen my virtual reality headser, psvr. I still had 3/4ths of the cartridge and said to myself that i meed to apologize for the way i did it the last time. I lit up the insense and listened to some binary beats for a while. I put on the headset. It was a crazy experience i don't remember as much about as the first two experiences. The feeling i had when i can't out if that was recognition for wanting to do things in a respectful manner. I don't know if that feelings was me forging myself for the way i tried it the second time it something else.

So for the last few days i keep feeling like there's something that i need to know and thoughts in my head saying there's something i want to show/tell you. B yet i just don't feel like going back right now.

I rarely post here and don't even know if i should have posted this here. I'm just a regular guy with lots of thoughts and curiosities that go on in my head. So i just felt like rambling i guess. Roast me if you feel the need. But back to the main question

When is it calling us? Does it call us?

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