Something I experienced in ceremony (with Ayahuasca) was, after surrendering my sanity, the surrender of myself, of my "being-ness" and for a bit I experienced non-existence. I can't describe it at al... View MoreSomething I experienced in ceremony (with Ayahuasca) was, after surrendering my sanity, the surrender of myself, of my "being-ness" and for a bit I experienced non-existence. I can't describe it at all, or fully remember it even, cuz I wasn't really there to describe or remember it. I've been calling that experience ego death cuz I don't know what to call it, but is that ego death or is ego death the lack of boundaries between self and everything else (which I briefly experienced at times)? The difference being, is ego death one-ness or nothing-ness, or both?
I'm of the belief that ego death is not possible since the ego is and has always been an integral part of us. I do however believe in ego dissolution where the ego dissolves back to the state it's meant to be in, the equal companion to spirit and not the one running the show.