Large Dose Trip

Hello everyone, 

I had posted on my page mid-way through a trip about how hard I was tripping and promised a report but I forgot. Here it goes. 

The holidays this year have been awful. My mother stopped recognizing me as her daughter early June and my family nearby stopped talking to me because of all the drama. So these holidays I spent them alone, sad, and stressed. 

On Decemeber 28th I talked to my grandparents (who don't live in the U.S) and I told them how depressed and stressed I was. I'm about to finish graduate school and I'm worried about the job search. After them encouraging me to pursue law (which I don't wanna do) I messaged them that I wanted to return to my home country--they encouraged me to finish school and stay strong and one day we would be together again. 

I spent two hours crying feeling lost, alone, and confused. Then I got up and decided to take 3 grams of my first ever harvest. Before hand I meditated and did some energy healing. I lit some palo santo and asked for my guides to come and accompany me on the trip and guide me to healing. 

I grounded up my mushes and threw them in some pepermint tea with honey, lemon, and a splash of cream. 

After about 40 minutes I felt my body tingle. When I lifted my hands above my head I saw them outlined with holographic lines. An hour later I called a best friend and told her I was tripping, I was still able to talk but after 40 minutes I hung up. I called my boyfriend and just cried for about an hour on the phone with him.

After our call I kept crying and crying. And I felt someone hug me, but I wasn't scared. Then I felt this weight lift from my heart and then evaporate into my celing. Then I started writing. About my pain, trauma, and whatever came into my mind. 

This was probaby one of the hardest things of my life, but the next day I felt lighter. Free. Less sad. More motivated and hopeful. For the future even though I was alone, I knew that I would have all my spiritual guides lighting the path for me.