Death

7g shrooms.400mg DMTStarted eating the chocolate. When it kicked in it didnt seem very potent for 7g. Not really much for visual and even with eyes closed I've seen far more...I just talked with a girl I'm seeing and she going through quite a lot with things.After we talked... it was weird. I was just absorbed into her emotions and feelings.I felt like I could see her heart/soul. I could feel the pain she's going through. I could feel her loving and wanting me but a barrier was wrapped around. She wanted it to break free. Kinda like it was trying to expand. But the wall is constricting it. I wanted to break it and wrap around her.It started to consume too much of my thoughts so I tried to change scenery a bit. Went inside after smoking a joint and started to kind of trail off.I decided before it wears off as it doesn't seem too potent I'll take the dmt.Packed a decent size anount into my vape.All the shapes I normally get became smaller and smaller until the whole room was a complete different dimension.Like visuals I get with lower doses zoomed out until it formed the room. I had a bit more of a hit and went for a shower. Before hand I was starting into the mirror and I was talking to myself from another dimension and wanted to crawl through the mirror into the other dimension, The jumped in the shower it interesting didnt really get much out of it. Decided to turn lights of and saw vines and Rose's wrapping everywhere. Slowly started to fade.So i was like damnit... well people see beings and talk to things... so you know what... fuck it.I poured out probably between .2 - .3g And did a line (it lasts about 45 min, but that was too much at one time for sure... my nose still burns).I went and jumped back in the shower.It started off really cool.and vibrant. I started seeing how precise everything was, how everything mathematically fit and how to fit my life into pride and being able to just have what you want ready and systematic for my own needs. Yet I'm too poor to do that stuff for myself. Just what I was seeing was improvement of life.It started getting more intense and I was in a torn like world. Blue floors with green lines. As vast as it could go.Almost knowing of the power this drug provides and how it could be saught for the change of humanity and a war that is going on between realms.That there is a force/aliens controlling government trying to destroy and control us. Destroy the earth and take all its resources.While the other side is trying to protect it and preserve it. The guidance I got from it was since I cant do anything for others to understand all I can do is my best to not let that control happen.This was all flashing quickly but time seemed endless.It was becoming too overwhelming, I realized it was too much to handle...I was starting to feel clustered inside. I was being trapped in this weird realm and was starting to freak out... I was trying to find the lights while shapes and grey and black boxes were spinning everywhere. When on shrooms I always end up throwing up...Well it was just too intense and well the bathtub got.covered... I finally got the light on after panicking with my brain going everywhere.Like I was stuck in a different realm/reality while still in this reality. I was spinning and panicking. My heart was just racing and I felt like I was going to be stuck in this loop. It was still overwhelming and threw up more... the whole time of visions of what death would feel like being trapped. After I was done throwing up. I was scrambling to try and break free. I was alone. My head was all over the place and disoriented. I was dying and i was stuck in a completely different realm.My heart was racing and i really felt i was never coming back to this world.I felt like i died. It was it all over.My phone went off but i couldn't find it...I was trying to get some help and swore the people upstairs thought I was dying too lol. I was butt naked running around looking while trying to breathe deeply and reassure I'll come back.At the same time feeling I never would.I went on to facebook and as I was trying to get help to find my phone I couldn't see my cursor. I was panicking even more because I wasnt even able to get help... I couldn't click or find anything.Slowly it started to come down... I was starting to gain a little control back.I could see the cursor and got my friend to call my phone.My chest was beating so hard and I could barely breathe... I was still panicking a bit but wasnt too bad. Talked a bit and reassures I was okay. But I really felt like I was still going to die. My breathing wouldn't stop calming down all I could take was big breaths. I tried to have some company to make sure i was okay. All i could think of was dying and everything that transpired. It was the scariest shit I've faced.But i made it through.I ended up just driving to the ER to make sure I was okay. I apparently triggered an.anxiety attack with asthma.I wasnt going to be alone incase anything happened.So I went to my friends place and crashed there.Learned a lot... need to value a lot of things in life. Because you just never know when it can happen. The scariest part is not knowing what death is and to fear that the horror could be a part of what death was. Being trapped and helpless.Love yourself and make yourself better. Always improve and dont settle less than what you deserve especially if you want pride of who and what you are.There is too many things this trip I learned... but overall I can be glad I did. Makes you grow and I'm definitely not who I was 24 hours ago...