GREEN SUEDE

i've been dragging ass on writing out my trip report, but that wasn't necessarily a bad thing. i've had time to simmer in everything that happened the other weekend.

everytime i decide to do acid, i get this real weird tingly feeling in my stomach and this awkward sensation in my mouth. and every time i put the tabs up under my tongue that weird sensation kinda rushes all over my mouth. its like my mouth knows exactly what i just put in there.

here recently, i've been making sure to be real conscious of my intentions before, during and after my trip. i've really been looking for some insight and trying to gain something out of my trips lately, especially since i feel like my life is kinda stale at the moment. so the second i put the tabs in my mouth i closed my eyes and kinda said a little prayer, i guess you could call it, in my head. i asked for a pleasant trip, and more than anything inspiration. and when i say inspiration i mean it in all aspects of life. in my art, my career, my hobbies. i want to do something about my life having this lackluster feel to it.

anyways, i took 2 tabs and laid down in bed next to my girl who didn't feel like taking any that night. she had some show playing on netflix and i thought it was boring so i got up to grab some weed and decided to roll myself a couple doobs. it took me a while to find my stash since i had been moving a bunch of my shit around, but once i did i grabbed a chair and my rolling tray, sat down in front of my tv and started grinding up about 2 or 3 grams. i was taking my time grinding the weed down while talking to my girl or watching the show that she was playing, but by the time i got done grinding my weed the hairs on the back of my neck started standing and i kept getting this weird chill go down my spine. the come up is always real jittery for me. but i hurried up and rolled 2 joints before i was too fucked up to roll em lol

after about an hour and 15 mins since i took the tabs, my vision really started going, everything was real hazy and objects in my room seemed to be outlined in yellow hilighter. i had this huge grin on my face i couldn't shake lol my girl kept glancing at me and everytime she did i smiled even harder. i decided to wait about 30 more minutes till i really started frying so i could smoke that joint. 

i do pretty good at smoking a joint right as i reach my peak, and this time around as soon as i finished smoking i took my ass inside my room. i sat on the couch and stared at my ceiling and i felt like i dissolved into thin air. i stared at puddles of different colors. bight flashing pillars of geometric designs danced in circles around me. i kept seeing alligator heads bouncing up and down, jaws chomping in a very 1950s disney, cartoon-esque manner. cartoon heads that looked like woody the woodpecker kinda bounced around, eyeballs popping out of their head and back.. it felt like a looney tunes episode on pcp. this went on for about a solid 45 mins, until i couldn't stand my dry mouth. i got up and drank some water, the trip to the fridge was real interesting.. i stopped by every picture on my wall on the way to the kitchen, having weird flashbacks to when the certain photos were taken. needless to say i was pretty distracted by anything and everything.

i put some bob marley on (i've been on a bit of a kick lately) and just laid on my couch. at this point my girl was asleep and i just had my dog to keep me company lol. i laid back, closed my eyes and let bob serenade me. i swear i was floating on a cloud, all the the anxiety i felt during my come up was gone and i felt very at peace with myself.. music was my shaman for the night. i really prefer to listen to ambient stuff when i trip, stuff with no lyrics. i feel like it sets a good mood for the voyage: just me, my thoughts and a pretty melody to kinda zone out to. as the sun came up, my mood shifted from lackadaisical and cool, to real contemptlative and worried almost. i felt a real urge to "get a grip" and not in the sense that i'm falling off some deep end, but more so i need to stop "lounging" thru life. i need to get myself out of whatever rut i feel i may be stuck in. real strong i'm my own worst enemy type vibes. 

overall i had a great experience, i usually do on acid, but i feel like i can't get to the place i wanna get with acid. shroom trips are always real mystical for me and super fiery. the sensations are different, overall i can just feel way deeper and its what i've been trying to experience. i remember my first couple trips on shrooms being so profound and memorable, now sometimes when i trip on acid its kinda like i just go thru the motions of tripping. i don't have epiphanies like before, or some enlightening moment of clarity or whatever you wanna call it. idk maybe it isn't the acid, maybe i'm forcing things instead of letting them flow.. i've even thought maybe i'm just asking the wrong questions... idk.

well there goes my first trip report, for those of you who made it this far, i appreciate you guys. sending love and many blessings to all

- ACIDBATH