Putting fear aside

Incredible how suddenly the very idea of fear gets disintegrated into unrecognizable particles. I have little to say, because I don’t recall very much from the experience, but subsequent reports of mine will hopefully be more detailed. I’ve heard that writing about them helps to improve the ability to stay lucid in the dmt realm. Before hand I’ve been thinking long and hard about what music to put on during my journeys. I’ve found that the right music can be a great comfort. I chose the ending of Blues For Allah by the Dead today. I vaporized what I thought was a smaller amount than what I had been, but I think a lot of resin has accumulated in the pipe so it’s hard to tell. I first used dmt many years ago and have used samples of varying potency it seems. This extraction which I made myself from Mimosa Hostilis continues to amaze me as the strongest I’ve yet encountered. From what I thought was a smaller amount, and I didn’t even hold it in very long I was instantly transported to “hyperspace” and the fears and anxieties that accompany me until the very moment became abstract ideas that I can only feel the negative effects of in my normal state of consciousness. Related to what often feels like destiny the peak effects began with the lyrics from the song I was listening to (Blues For Allah) “under eternity.” The message was so appropriate. Upon entering the space I see colors that I will never see in normal consciousness. The place feels ancient, timeless really, and inhabited by powerful beings, some of which I think are gods. I felt contact from only one this time, a teacher I call the wizard. The last thing I can recollect semi-clearly is that this being was annoyed with me for having apprehension about coming to the realm. I believe that they want to be in contact with us. As I began to come back to ordinary reality, and this has been happening every time, I feel compelled to say “thank you,” over and over. I am truly grateful for these experiences. It’s been about a year since the last occasions I used dmt several times. What I noticed then was that there is something like a learning curve, an assimilation process into the space, and with practice, we become more accustomed to the dmt realm and feel more comfortable there. In synch with this, I think the entities there begin to welcome us more. Thanks anyone who reads this. I look forward to finding community here and people to talk to about these experiences which I find to be so important. Under eternity my friends.