Locked in My Car with My Old Friend Salvia

Here's a creative story that I wrote:I have been wanting to try Salvia again for a while. My first few times must have been the lowest percent concentration of Salvinorin A, because they were very relaxed and giggly with some friends that I wasn't that close with. I recently purchased some 20x concentration and had it for over a week before I found the time and courage to try some of it. There were a few synchronistic signs that led me to believe that I was ready, including coincidentally walking through the perennials and there was a row of different Salvia flowers xD I spent the 5 or 6 nights prior to the experience meditating for at least 15 minutes with the dried leaf concentrate. I was well rested last night and still eager to finally dive in after the 15 minutes. On top of that, I felt that I had built up some positive karma by keeping cool and acting and thinking from a loving place consistently for a good while now. So, as I sat in the passenger side of my car, I pinched the amount suggested by a fellow voyager out of the bag and put half of that into my bowl lol I went in with the intent of finding guidance on how to help my wife learn to love herself. She has PTSD among other personal issues, but still she is a beautiful light shining through all of the horrid shit that life has thrown and continues to throw at her. Took the hit, put the pipe down, and held it in as long as if it were the very last toke of cannabis that I had left. Released it, and felt things starting to get weird. It was mostly my thought space that was changing. I began to disassociate with my life story. I knew all the details still but was looking at the life from the outside. I waited about 5 minutes to see if anything else would happen. I read that it is not very long lasting, so I went ahead and repeated this process with the same amount. I went a little bit further, but was still not satisfied, so before that started to wear off, I loaded twice as much (which is the amount that my experienced friend reports using regularly) and smoked it all in one hit. I held it in as long as I could again, put the pipe down, and laid back in the seat, almost horizontally. That is when the ride began…before I knew what hit me, I began rotating through becoming all of the objects in my thought process. I think that my ego spazzed the fuck out at this point. My own voice was in my head saying, "You think this is funny?" The answer was FUCK NO! I felt like I was being trapped in my car, because of this one phrase that was repeating in my head, as I cycled through being incarnated into the seat of my car, the pipe that I put down, the door handle, back to my body, seat of my car, repeat…."You think this is funny? You think this is funny?" About 10 minutes of this (if my calculations are correct), once my consciousness completed one of it's cycles into the temporary meat-sack that I have claimed as this life, I was able to grab hold of my body and stay there long enough to look for the door handle, as I was seriously claustrophobic at that point. Much to my dismay, the door handles were not there. I touched the spot where I have seen the door handle for the 2 years that I've been driving the car. It was smooth. I ran my finger along the whole door as slow as my racing heart would let me, nothing. This whole time cycling through many more objects than I can remember. I finally think about the flashlight on my phone and turn it on. THERE'S NO FUCKING DOOR HANDLE!! My voice repeats again, "You think this is funny?"I look at the driver's side with the flashlight and see the same thing. I reach over and feel for the handle expecting that my eyes are definitely tricking me. They are not. There are no handles on the doors!!At this point, I chuckle and actually burst out laughing a little. Lol What else could I do? Guess I'm not getting out of my car anytime soon. Good thing I brought my water and some resin! xDI kid you not, as soon as I laughed, the handles were there the next time I checked maybe like 15 seconds after laughing. I pull up on the lock (which was never down to begin with) and frantically pull open the door into the cool fresh air, and begin laughing to myself. And say out loud, "Man, I guess it was pretty funny!" lol I'm kind of annoyed though, at not having my intent even acknowledged. I wrote to a few close friends that I've met on here about my experience, just to write the thoughts down before trying to get some rest. I felt like I must have offended some sort of Salvia spirit, by only giggling that last few times that I tried Salvia. Today, I was about to leave the house to get something at Lowes, and when I walked outside my backdoor, there was a hawk sitting in my vegetable garden. He was perched on a short metal rod that is in the ground for vines to climb and staring at my chicken coop. He was BEAUTIFUL, and he was HUGE! If I were to stand it on the floor next to me, it was probably about 3 feet tall. I stared at it in awe for a good 30 seconds, before he/she must have felt me staring at it from across the yard. I felt it was a male, but I could be wrong. He looked me dead in the eyes, scanning for threats and capabilities, before lunging and soaring up to a tall tree just past the chicken coop and 'cacaww'-ing to it's mates I assume. I ran inside to tell my wife, and told her if she comes, she could see it. When we get back outside, it has just jumped off the tree, and flew across the yard (a few acres that my mother in law owns). It was stunning, and the standoff that we had was intense! I was thinking about it, and I have decided that it must have been a test. That I was supposed to remain calm, while I switched into all these unfamiliar life forms. Things that I normally would not consider to be alive, except that I believe that everything is made from the same star dust, so technically everything is literally entangled. To sum it up, it was scary as FUCK for about 5 minutes of "Holy shit I'm locked in my car!" until I finally thought to myself…"so what? Lol"Looking back at it, it was actually quite thrilling, and I probably took too much that third hit out of impatience. I probably with go again the next time I get the chance, as it was very short lived and I believe that it was a great test of my patience. I totally failed the test at first, but thankfully I let go of the fear relatively quickly. I could totally imagine someone freaking out so bad that the handle never reappears for them xDI am not sure actually what I believe happened to that door handle. a) My mind was convinced that it was gone, so my brain didn't process it, even when my fingers ran past itb) The handle actually disappeared'a' is probably most likely, but when you're in that situation, actual reality is whatever your mind creates, right? Needless to say, I was too excited to sleep, and I was out of bud. and besides that, I'm wondering if maybe I should smoke out of my pipe, or maybe there is some salvia left that will lock my out of my own house lol I smoked resin, and probably a bit of remaining Salvia. Three big harsh hits of resin got my adequately stoned enough to meditate myself to sleep around 1 AM.Namaste, allHope you enjoyed my tale. I may write another one sometime soon. :) :o