Accidental high dose LSD - Grampians National park Australia 2016

In 2016 i started a 1,5 year journey through Peru, Mexico, Australia and the Philippines, living and working my way arcross the countries. Once arrived in Australia i worked in a cotton processing factory called a cotton gin for 3,5 months doing shifts from 07:00 AM till 07:00 PM 6 nights per week. I filled my pockets and bought a simple van with the intension to drive solo all the way around Australia in however many months it would take. Before enbarking on this joureny i spend 2 months with local people in a town called Mullumbimby, i had a beautifull connection with them and they took the best care of me while i was getting ready to adenture. They hooked me up with 10 drops of liquid LSD and one ounce of weed, i was ready to start my journey.

I strated from Mullumbimby driving south allong the coast taking my time exploring nature while hiking and scuba diving, once i hit the most southern part of the mainland i started driving towarths the center of the continent. My way of travelling was kind of going form national park to national park, stopping occasionally in cities or towns to resupply and have some free internet at a McDonalds or something like that. In the national parks that resonated the most with me i had a ritual to do a psychedelic bush walk on a midweek, staring early doing a long 8 hour track so its nice and quiet. There is a national park called the Grampians in Victoria, ive heard beautifull things about it so my sights were set. When i reached the park i felt an instant connection with the land. I loved the geography and the colours of the rocks, grey with vibrant orange and coverd with patches of green metallic looking lichen. I camped out for 3 nights slowly moving from south to north doing hikes through out the park, my plan was to do another psychedelic bush walk on the north end of the park because i heard the scenery there is very impressive.
The time was there, i reached the parking lot of the location where i was gonna have my experience. Very excited i was preparing everything, packing my bag, rolling 2 joints, keeping my mind calm by being in the moment. I got my little bottle of acid ready, it was a empty unused essentiol oil bottle where the acid was in, with previous trips i had no trouble gently pouring out one little drop but this time it refused to leave the bottle. Even completyl upside down the liquid LSD would collect on the rim on the inside of the bottle. For some reason in my mind i felt like i made many trips on this acid already so in a confident and enthusiastic state of mind i threw the whole bottle in my glass, gave it a shake and drank everything. Still unaware of what i had done i started counting the trips i made on this acid. I made that trip... and that one... and that one... and... and... Wait a second, only 3? But i had 10 drops... ... ... FUUUCK!
The realitiy started to sink in, i was going to have an LSD exierence that goes far beyond what im familiar with. This LSD was potent aswell, one drop was already enough for a decend trip.
Instead of staring the hike right away i decided to wait in my van for it to work and then asses the situation and go from there. There were no other people, there was a strong sense of being alone in the wild. Already after 30 minutes i felt the effect kicking in pretty strong, however i felt confident. At this time i was living in natioal parks for almost 2 months, i had attended a 10 day Vipassana meditation retreat aswell several weeks before so i felt very close to myself and connected to nature, that gave me a lot of confidence.
I grabbed my bag, rolled up my sleeves and started walking on my bare feet as im very much into that. Walking over the parking lot the hallucinations were already more in my face then with the other trips of this acid and i was only 35 to 40 minutes in. Focussing on staying equanimous i walked up the mountain, with every stap my bare feet would look more and more like dinosaur paws. It kept on intensifying and i really started to struffle. When i looked up to see where i was, i gazed into a vally and the sight was so incredible. The vally seemed alive i could see the energie flow through matter, the trees down in the vally had turend into a green ocean craching onto the so beautyfully painted rocks, the rocks morphed and hover towards me and back into the mountain. Above all this a bright blue sky slowly chaning to a darker tone as your looked further up, a very interesting honeycomb grid system coverd the sky, not swirling or morphing at all, like a fixed energetic grid system covering our planet. It was way to much, i could barly stand on my feet and stood still struggling for a while, then i heard voices.. Oh no, sober people coming down the mountain from there early morning climb. The idea of crossing these people on a narrow track while tripping balls on the highest dose of LSD i ever took at like 10:00 in the morning freaked me out and i turned around. Walking back to the van was kind of like flying through a wormhole, everything was breathing, morphing and melting together. Once i made it back to my van i climed up into the drivers seat with a feeling of distress and panic, i talked to myself, you can do this, you got this. I applied the meditation techneques ive learned at the Vipassana retreat and worked really hard on keeping control of the ship, with my eyes closed i saw the most crazy lightshow with colours never seen before. It went on for a while and i was barely capable of maintaning but then something really remarkeble and deep happend.
The hallucinations where all gone just like that, i sat in my van in the drivers seat with my eyes closed, nothing to see, only blackness. It surprised me greatly and shortly after i lost touch with my body, it was like being suspendid in blackness of space. A sphere slowly appeared before me and shortly after i could see it is planet earth, then a thin film of bright white light strated covering our world. 2 beams of light shot out of the planet, one out of each pole straight into the universe. I was completly mezmerized by this vision and then voices came to me and strated to say that this white light i was seeing is the collective consiousness, it explaind to me that all of life flows from one source, a bright white light that covers our planet and is connected to the cosmos. My eyes opened in a shock, i was back in my van and it felt like an eternity ago and a split second at the same time. I had lost a total sense of self, totally confused i climbed out of my van and walk around it while holding it for balance. I had no idea who i was supposed to be, where i came from, what was going on. The confusing frightend me and made me pray to god to please let everything go back to "normal". Thank god for slowly letting the puzzle piece fall into place again, i rememberd my name, then Australia, then oooh yeah LSD, OH MY GOD, what happend, that was fucking crazy! My mood flipped from afraid to stoked and happy after retreaving my identity. I sat down and took a moment to refect on this incredibly deep expierence, filled with gratitude i decided to make a small hike to the top of a lower mountain as i was still trippin balls only now it was managble and oh so enjoyable after seeing this awsome vision. What a trip, i curled up satified and smiling that night.

The next day i continued my joureny up north with some profound knowlage to digest and the trip didnt end just yet! A week later im cruizing through the red center towarths Yulara to visit Uluru, a sacret aboriginal sight. I drive on a long road throught the desert with hardly any traffic on it at around 05:00 PM, i thought to myself this would be a great place to have car trouble and im not kidding when i say that the split second i think it, my gearbox makes one load bang and thats it.. She's busted..  Be careful what you wish for or even thing about i guess. I pulled over and accepted the situation, good thing im driving my home so i made the best of crappy situation by rolling a spliff and opening a beer. Sun was setting, no traffic at all, completly alone in the desert. I turn on some tunes form an artist called Merkaba and listen to a random track i havent heard yet.. then a sample is played from Bill Higgs that goes like this:

Today a young man on acid realized that all matter is merely energy condensed to a slow vibration, that we are all one consciousness experiencing itself subjectively, there is no such thing as death, life is only a dream, and we are the imagination of ourselves.

Amazed i rewind and listen again.. This is what I experienced aswell! Seeing the energie in the matter, realizing the oneness of our consiousness and finally for a couple of moments experiencing reality without the imaginary self present, the avatar that i have created around myself over the years is my own imagination.
It felt like a big wink from the universe telling me that what i went through was not a random hallucination but a shared vision and this automaticly backs up the messege of a shared consiousness that is one with all.
I didnt touch LSD for a while after this trip, it had a huge impact on me as a person. I made it out of the desert and all the way around Australia, it was a once in a lifetime journey to do this on my own. I found a lot of my self in that periond but ive realized there is also no end to the this process of finding one's self, there is always more layers to be revealed.

Thanks for reading and God bless