astronautintheocean

Last monday i had a powerfull experience on 5,2 gram TAT's. I was at my place by my self and prepared a paste made from a powderd TAT cluster, i added a teaspoon of honey, a bit of salt and lime juice. Mixed it all together untill i had a smooth silver lookin paste, on the side a brew of ceremonial cacao tea. I always like to write down an intension to offer myself something to focus on when the trip takes hold. I used the same intension that i worked with in my 2 previous experiences which was to practice active navigation through these realms using focus, body position and enquiry as tools. Right after consumption i started doing some yoga, it didnt take long for my palms to get real sweaty, this was my cue. I sat in total darkness on the couch.. upright, relaxed but firm with lengthend spine pointing to the cosmos and started meditating. It kicked in fast, in a matter of moments it felt like i was sliding backwards into the couch as a very digital seeming realm envelopped me, strikingly similair to DMT. The first phase reminded me alot of an Esher style art piece with all the staircases going in all sorts of direction, strangely enough in black and white, also entities were running around over those staircases but they were not really botherd by me, way to busy doing their own thing. It was quiet overwelming, it took very consiouss breathing to stay with myself. After a while i had to pee, kind of happy i worked my way to the bathroom cause on the toilet often miracles happen while trippin, in my case at least :P I sat down and was catapulted into vison.. i felt the deep connectedness of everything and everyone, it felt like every step you take and every action you make ripples in to the future but also into the past, interacting and reacting with everything. I struggled practicing my intension, the trip was so wild and all over the place, however there was a very powerfull insight about the current events in the world that felt really pure. It showed me that humanity has already made the leap to a higher state of consiousness and that what we are going through now, is the dying off of the old ways. Like a snake shedding its skin, the snake already has new skin, the old skin just has to slowly peel of. In other words, humans who honor the system represent the snake skin and will fall away over time. As humans who honor nature represent the snake it self, that is very alive and ready to thrive. I expierenced a deep sense of timelessness, and who i was suppoed to be was a bit of a blur too.. that feeling was tunring the wrong way, i started to feel really confused. I left the bathroom and moved into the kitchen, i had hoped on a glorious revelation but what i got was total confusion. Time had stopped, i was so certain of it that i got affraid.. up to the point that i wanted to reach out to somebody. I danced around it for while trying to get back to myself on my own but i was unsuccesfull. I grabbed my phone and opend the contacts but it felt like reaching out to myself, the feeling that everything and everyone is a reflection of your own consiousness, this can be really beautifull but in this state of confusion it was kind of scary. I decide to pray for it to stop but the same thing happend, who am i praying to? I had lost the plot.. i felt really hopeless and didnt know what to do anymore, i started to accept it for what it is. I grabbed my coat and went outside for a walk, it was really cold and this coldshock saved my trip totally. After 20 minutes outside i returned and as i enterd my house and looked at the clock i realized that everything made sense again, whatever part of my spirit that was still hanging outside of my body had re-entered. I felt great, so happy that i was back to myself and had this amazing experience. Full of joy i made some notes and now this report, this was a really great experience with a lot of depth and bit of challenge at the end. It was very complete and cant wait for the next encounter :) Thanks for reading and MushLove