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Weathered

Male. Lives in Dover, United Kingdom. Born on March 4, 1971.

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October 11, 2019 1:51 pm

This is the realization I came to from a challenging journey I once had, firstly the lack respect I showed the mushroom was unforgivable I never truly knew the power they had over me, my ego thought i... View MoreThis is the realization I came to from a challenging journey I once had, firstly the lack respect I showed the mushroom was unforgivable I never truly knew the power they had over me, my ego thought it was cool dude in control of it all. I was wrong, I was was forced to bow to who was in control. Put in my place the anxiety bordering on fear unable to get off the roller-coaster, who do I think I am I was told, I am nothing here I was told, my ego was destroyed, helpless, finally I was able to get off, broken I thought to myself I'm never going back there, and I didn't for over a year and never thought I would it was the furthest thing from from my mind, but after time coincidences started happening and things directing me back, for a while I ignored them but finally I excepted them and I knew I had to go back, so I did, well I fasted for 24hrs and ended up taking 1g of blended mushrooms with water, just enough to step inside the door, to be honest as soon as the familiar feeling of coming up washed over me, i became a little anxious and thought I had made a mistake but there was no going back now, i closed the curtains lated on my sofa and put a blanket over me to keep me warm, then I closed my eyes, the colours the emotions the visions wow, but in the back of my psyche the fear was there and it would not go, then bam all of a sudden a giant face as much insect as human was In my minds eye, welcome back Lee it said to me,, the neon colours pulsing all over like an electric rainbow, you need no ego here if you come here you must surrender yourself, rid yourself of your ego you are nothing, so i did I excepted I am nothing there, I was shown beautiful places from afar, not yet being allowed to be enclosed in them, I was told its wanting for me but warned my ego was not welcome and will be rejected, then I opened my eyes to the room, I opened the curtains and checked the clock I had been gone 2 hours, I rode out the rest of the experience in sunlight and and a overwhelming feeling of love, until I slowly came back, well it wasn't until the next day that the realization of the message came to me and this is the main point of this post, you can only truly love when you have no ego, if I wanted to go back and be shown it all I have to return with pure love in my heart, that meant that from that moment on I had to live my life in kindness and love, from brushing my teeth to hugging my family members, deeds not words, you can only truly live in love and lack of fear when you suppress your ego,

I'm not one for sharing my journeys but iv noticed people having challenges, so I just wanted to give my opinion on them, that I think,,a challenging journey may be the ones that truly help you find what you're looking for, change what you need to change,

The journey is not a game show respect

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Mattaiyan

Very nice brother! Love is always the answer!

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Thirdeyevybe

That was beautiful to read thank you for sharing

Like 2 October 11, 2019