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Larry

Male. Lives in Hyde Park, New York, United States. Born on September 1, 2000. Is single.

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I'd love nothing more than to sit on top of the world and enjoy the view. I follow my heart's desire... View More

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May 15, 2020 10:47 am

So its been about 2 weeks since I last tripped. I really was having a hard time there, and part of the problem was that I definitely made myself psychologically dependent on the acid, hailing it as a ... View MoreSo its been about 2 weeks since I last tripped. I really was having a hard time there, and part of the problem was that I definitely made myself psychologically dependent on the acid, hailing it as a cure for all of my illnesses even though it isnt that kind of medicine. You see, im sure a lot of people have stories like this, but i took it at the lowest point in my life. I was having a shitty shitty life when i started. Its gotta come as a surprise to you then, that because i did the research and set a trip intention and controlled my environment and then eventually learned to control myself so that i could actually change my environment and still be okay...well im proud to say that ive never had a bad trip. I have had intense trips, but i always was able to exert enough control over my own brain while i was tripping that, i was basically meditating during the length of each trip. But you see, i started it as a ritual, i wanted to not only destroy myself, but to also heal myself back up, better than ever, as ive done all my life. My brain is very very unique, because not only has my life been so very different from the average american(not in a good way)(plus i was born in Ukraine, so its not hard to imagine) but i also have adhd, which is a chemical imbalance disorder, and therefore my trip was already set to be unique. But all of this is to say, over the course of a year and a half. Ive tripped over a hundred and seventy times! 170. Yep. Thats right. Now if you ask me, because of this app and the ability to talk to fellow psychonauts, its given me clarity that a trip is meant to be absorbed over the course of a month or more. Meaning that tripping shouldnt occur more than 12 times in a year, no more than 4 if youre being extra careful. So i realize that because i didnt wait, ive been experiencing the same trip for a year and half now, because its all my brain knows how to do right now. A few days is not long enough to really do anything with the information i learned about myself during the trips, and i havent actually seeked to follow through on some of the goals i set during the trips. Okay so lets make something clear-i am a very spiritual person, albeit not religious. I believe that our souls exist meaning that life goes on in some form after death, how that occurs, i couldnt tell you, but i do know that our time on earth shouldnt be in vain, that ultimately we must use our time to prepare for the after journey. And so ive been attempting to fix my soul with this acid. To tamper with my persona in such a way that i can finally leave behind all of my guilt and live with confidence. I havent exactly lived a clean industrious life, and i havent always had the ability to use such clarity about my life, but once you do acid, for me its like being touched by a God. The energy just courses through me and my thoughts become clearer and more complicated and full of a certain volume and expertise that i could never do in real life. In fact, i see it as a little Felix Felicis, my luck potion, but i have noticed that it was really starting to wear me and my psyche down and i feel much much better already! Even though its only been two weeks, i feel cleaner and ive been getting better sleep and my mentality has been consistently more positive and productive! Thank you guys!

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ExMagic

you say "that I couldn't never do in real life" whats not real life about having an experience? just cuz you were under the influence, doesnt make it any less real just know the what you feel is only one version of real. theres a lot of realities out there,

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