white_rabbit_1111

I took 5g last weekend. This was my 3rd time. Each time I've had pretty profound breakthrus. I prefer 5g of shrooms to taking ayahuasca as breakthrus are guaranteed for me with shrooms and there's no nausea. Anyway... This trip was different than anything I've experienced before. I was in my bedroom, lights out and silent. The moon was visible through my window and when it would catch my eye, I felt like it was God or some form of intelligence. It was communicating with me and trying to teach me **SOMETHING** (I can't remember what it was). I do remember expressing my gratitude for trusting me and asking me how I could help others with the information. I stared for so long at this being/god figure, as to imprint it on my mind and soul so I would never forget the vision or feeling. I kept getting distracted, though. My cats' energy gets really werid when I trip and I also had to keep using the bathroom to pee. Each time, I would be called back to looking at this light. I felt like I was almost back to sober. I even had Siri text a friend that knew I was tripping to let him know, "I'm almost there." Like, back to sobriety and capable of a conversation soon. I laid back down after peeing and was called back to the light. It was then that something INSANE happened. The best way to describe it was like what happened to Neo after he took the red pill. I was shown what I believe was the reality/history of the galaxy and it was NOT GOOD. The general feeling I had was that human kind was responsible for a lot of tragedy and suffering and that this intelligence I was interacting with had been so merciful. Whatever education they were giving me telepathically also affected me physically. I felt all the suffering that I had witnessed. I was crying uncontrollably and it felt like someone had kicked me in the stomach. I literally could not breathe. I was practically flailing on my bed as I was experiencing whatever was happening in my mind. I don't know how long it lasted... maybe 5-10 minutes? When it was done, they told me to never forget what they had shared. And I knew I never would because they had somehow modified my DNA. It was like it had to be in order for me to recieve the information. I was bawling and telling them that I would never look away, I would never forget and begging them to have mercy on us (humans). At one point, my eyes were flittering and my head was moving in this weird jerkish motion, and I felt like I was being reprogrammed somehow. I cannot remember anything specifically about the galactic lesson or what I saw. Only what I felt that was tragic and heartwrenching. Literally breathtaking like a kick in the stomach. I woke up at 5:30 the next morning and cried some more, as the sorrow lingered. I felt like my body was hit by a train that day. I do not sleep a lot. I'm not a nap person and if I get 5 hours, I'm good to go. I had slept about 5 hours that night... woke up for a few hours, slept 5 more hours. Was up for about 7 hours then slept another 11 hours.  I am still processing and hoping that details will come back to me through a dream or meditation. Still wondering what it all means. Curious if anyone has ever had anything similar?