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I normally don't like to ask for help from Anyone about Anything but now I'm at my wits end and I'm certain thiers an easy answer that's eluding me. So since Thursday or Friday Ive caught a soldier fly in my home in my room at my window. Lost little soul I captured it and released it outdoors. Saturday it came back I thought must be a female sent her back outside. Sunday she brought a friend caught both released them outside. Yesterday AGAIN one was above my bed all night and I just imagined she must love me or something because everytime I catch her she buzzes up a storm all pissed off I'm kicking her out. Now TODAY I released 2 of them AGAIN idk how they are getting into my room door sealed and closed left home went ran errands came back and might of eft my door open maybe 5 minutes while grabbed bags from my car...turned on my AC and sat down and thought... "Maybe those little flys are really herald's for the Spirit Realm and they are calling me back in" Just then a soldier fly I didn't see landed right on my HEART. I couldn't believe it. The "coincidence" is too uncanny landed on the left side of my chest as soon as I took my shirt off and just looked up at me. I try to be kind to nature's creatures but WTF??... Thier a saying that you don't choose the path but the path chooses you...could that little bug actually telepathically put into my mind that it's time for me to return to beyond Time and Space and learn the rest of it? I kinda baulked at how ludicrous the shxt was and of course nobody sane would believe any of it anyway so I didn't get the "Full Download" but I got an idea and it's not bueno for us Humans. So this here is where I need a nudge in the right direction. Has anyone else had experiences with insects as mesangers? Idk maybe some talk butterflies others Months and me the Little Soldier fly who angrily gets thrown out and happily returns to land on my chest? Idk if I'm paying too much attention or not enough or if this is all beyond the rest of the worlds understanding. Now you see why I need a little help with this because it's not a one off event. It's been over several days like 5 and Today it touched down on my HEART. This could be a bad omen or possibly a good one. Idk so I'm throwing it out there see how far I've lost my mind. Lol I should add Soldier Flys are kinda rare here. Until last week I hadn't seen any all year so thier not like wasp hornets or house flies. Edit First pic stock photo off Google second my little spirit whisperer watching me post this hahaha Edit day #6 she still fussy when I catch her and throw her out so I'll wait until tonight give her the boot again lol Crazy bug in love with me