i am completely lost. egoless. there is no foundation. im still unlearning so much toxic bs from my family and society. ive neglected multiple oppertunities to go deep with mushrooms and lsd lately wh... View Morei am completely lost. egoless. there is no foundation. im still unlearning so much toxic bs from my family and society. ive neglected multiple oppertunities to go deep with mushrooms and lsd lately which im no stranger to. this time its terrifying. that i may lose whatever self i have left. not that i really have it in the first place. i really dont know what to do. id like to work at a park to get away from here and be with nature. building something with my first love is always in my mind. cant tell if im dreaming too much on that one. thinking and dreaming is looking into the future though? projecting what you want to happen. i cant think of anything better
