Happy easter weekend brothers and sisters. Only having tried ayahuasca before last week, i gave mushrooms a try. Took 3g GT, and basically felt pangs of anxiety, had zero visuals, and had inner conver... View MoreHappy easter weekend brothers and sisters. Only having tried ayahuasca before last week, i gave mushrooms a try. Took 3g GT, and basically felt pangs of anxiety, had zero visuals, and had inner conversations with myself where i think i was almost trying to trick myself into thinking it was the trip and not just me cycling through random thoughts. Was very weird. Maybe just a null first trip? Also I've tried microdosing this week and each time, for the first 30-45 mins i get those real bad pangs of anxiety again. Wasn't sure if that's normal or at least fairly common? I tend to feel quite nice for the rest of the day though. Appreciate anyone's thoughts on any of this. Sending love and warmth.
Were you microdosing during the week before or after the 3g experience? If it was before the 3g may have had less of an effect due to tolerance levels created by the microdosing, but if you were microdosing after I'm not sure.
I have anxiety every day, but the mushroom come up always triggers my anxiety. Normally that goes away after the come up. I’ve only noticed this while microdosing when my dose hits me harder than expected. 99% of the time while microdosing I do not struggle with this. I don’t think the type of trip ... View MoreI have anxiety every day, but the mushroom come up always triggers my anxiety. Normally that goes away after the come up. I’ve only noticed this while microdosing when my dose hits me harder than expected. 99% of the time while microdosing I do not struggle with this. I don’t think the type of trip you had is odd at all. Some varieties are more visual that others, but with mushrooms all your senses and your mind trip. It is much more of a multifaceted trip than I remember my acid trip being. I’ve tripped in my mind and had auditory hallucinations without visuals a few times on mushrooms. I think people are often surprised and unprepared at how mushrooms engage so much more than some visuals.
Also, after my first DMT trip I got a little gun shy with other substances for awhile. As I would smoke weed or eat some mushrooms I would experience anxiety with a slight dread of ending up in the DMT realm. Once I fully integrated my DMT experience this fear went away. It is almost as if my body/s... View MoreAlso, after my first DMT trip I got a little gun shy with other substances for awhile. As I would smoke weed or eat some mushrooms I would experience anxiety with a slight dread of ending up in the DMT realm. Once I fully integrated my DMT experience this fear went away. It is almost as if my body/subconscious was convinced the reality I knew could drop away at any moment. I think experiences and anxiety like this are pretty normal. Especially if you already struggle with anxiety.
Thank you for your incredibly thoughtful and insightful replies. I really appreciate them. Whilst my aya journey was bloody incredible, there were also parts that were terrifying, so perhaps there was a part of me that was afraid to go back to that. Perhaps i went in with too many preconceptions and... View MoreThank you for your incredibly thoughtful and insightful replies. I really appreciate them. Whilst my aya journey was bloody incredible, there were also parts that were terrifying, so perhaps there was a part of me that was afraid to go back to that. Perhaps i went in with too many preconceptions and ideas from reading trip reports. I was just a little disappointed too as i was expecting something a little more involved, and at least a tiny bit spiritual. It was just more in-depth thinking with pangs of anxiety really!
As for the order, i began microdosing after the initial "trip" so i doubt it has anything to do with tolerance as it was my first ever try, and i haven't done any substances whatsoever since before christmas.
Thanks again!