I bathed in the love of God. 4th Mushy trip

So this trip happened on 4/24, a few days after 4/20 which I was unable to participate in because of bullshit laws and no material to celebrate with. Since I didn't have any bud I thought a good Mushy trip would've sufficed but sadly my Eldest sister wanted to bring over one of her friends and that friend brought her niece so of course that wasn't going to happen. I was pretty bummed the next few days right up until that glorious Saturday evening, most of my family was out at my Nanas house and my Eldest, Father, and I were all at my home, Eldest was in her room doing whatever and Father was asleep so I thought, "Why not take this glorious opportunity and prepare for the medicine that I've been called towards for the past several weeks!?". So I cleaned up the house a bit to appease my mind and to give respect to the Mushies, I did some dishes, took out the trash, changed my bedsheets both downstairs and upstairs (where I decided to take refuge during the trip, my actual bed's in the living room but upstairs is much better for a solo trip), swept a little bit, then began preparing the medicine. I decided to try Lemon Tek again since that seemed to be pretty effective my last adventure, I weighed out my 5grams dry B+ Mushies that I "foraged" myself and crumbled them up into tiny pieces and submerge them in Lemon juice for about 45 mins, stirring occasionally. While waiting for that to finish I continued preparing for the ceremony to ensue, I watered all my plants, fed the cats, petted the cats, snuggled and played with the cats, picked out my outfit to wear after the trip, and finished furnishing the upstairs bedroom with really soft blankets and tons of pillows, stuffed animals, tons of water, and noise cancelling/dampening headphones. After about 45 mins I came back downstairs and strained the Mush out of the lemon juice (If I was able to pulverize the fungi I wouldn't have strained it but there were still pretty big chunks and I can't stand the taste of the Flesh), then I grabbed my water bottle, the cup filled with the Holy Grail, and very reluctantly chugged most of the magic concoction while almost throwing up in the process. After I finished that I headed over to the shower and took a very nice, very warm, 15 min shower. After my sauna I quickly hobbled my way upstairs with my phone, change of clothing, and my Toga/towel. Once upstairs I rubbed myself down with the towel and hopped onto the bed and waited until the trip began. It only took a few minutes for me to notice a change in my visual space and mental space and I knew it was starting at that point. My sister's baby was cooing a little too loudly at this point (her room is also upstairs) so I decided to put on my noise cancelling headphones and tried to listen to the Mushies while keeping my eyes shut, not too long after I heard a very soft, droning, and precarious hum begin to manifest and grow louder and louder (keep in mind my headphones aren't even plugged into my phone). I didn't have any visuals at this point yet, just the growing ringing. The ringing was also definitely not any form of Tinnitus because it didn't start out high pitch and stay that pitch but rather start out low and slowly rise. It wasn't very fast but rather pretty slow rising, but once it reached higher and higher pitches the visuals slowly started forming and I could feel my mind getting more excited and energized and basically "waking up". I felt my body slowly loose it's heaviness and at this point I felt as if I was floating in an infinite abyss, I could almost not feel the bed unless I moved any of my body parts slightly. The ring kept getting louder and louder while gravity seemed to exempt me from its forces. My visual space (still eyes closed) felt more lively and electric and I could see little balls of soft colored light floating around morphing into more beautiful colors and shapes. As the visuals got more intense and fucking gorgeous, the ringing kept rising and seemed to swirl around me like I was listening to an 8D music video or something like that and eventually it encompassed my entire physical body and I could feel the ringing reverberating throughout my bones and it was a very electrical feeling. It basically felt like getting tased in the front row next to the speaker at a Slipknot concert but wasn't painful or frightening. All this time I wasn't feeling scared or afraid of what was happening but rather excited for what's to come. My body kept rising, the ringing kept swirling around me and throughout my bones, the visuals were getting more colorful and intense and very complex and I wish I could describe it but as most of y'all know that's almost impossible to do over text. The best way I could describe it is tons of language-bearing symbols and fractals filled with color and meaning swirling around the visual space and basically opening a "portal" into what came next. (I'll be honest at this current moment I don't remember everything that happened after I "broke through" and was in that space so I'll just tell y'all everything that I do remember.) The swirling was getting more and more Intense, the ringing was getting louder, everything was very electrified and energetic but also very calming. I wholeheartedly surrendered to the Mush, albeit was slightly difficult with a baby screaming through my headphones. Once I fully surrendered the ringing, electric energy, and everything around me transformed into a beam of, idk what, but a beam and shot my soul into the Ether. That same ringing then turned into very interesting electric dubstep kind of music and went along with the visuals and the kind of "tunnel" that I got shot through. This tunnel was the brightest and most beautiful blue, green, purple, and hints of yellow all swirled into one kind of marage of color and seemed to go on forever, but I was through within the sec it felt like. I don't really remember what happened when/if I went to the other end, all I remember is being shot back down the same way I came up crashing back into my body. I awoken pretty startled by what I must've seen and experienced and just couldn't believe it. I tried to replicate what I've done by meditation but to no avail, I had the same ringing but couldn't seem to have gotten strong enough to blast off. I then sat on the bed for the next few hours until the Mushies wore off just thinking about everything. I thought about everything thing from the existence of God to my own sexuality I even thought about my 2nd Eldest and how much I really love her and want to care for her in any way I can and get her out of this rut with my dad. I even thought about my dad and what he's done (not going over it in this post, I probably have a post somewhere on my account explaining it) and how horrible it was that he could even do that twice sober to his own daughter. The Mushies helped me realize that even though my Father has done that I still love him, but I don't love his actions. I dove deep into the idea of God and as I was doing so the Mushies kept showing me images of all the types of religions and educating me on all of them while I felt as if God itself was watching over me at that moment and brushing his love all over me. From the outside it may have look like a fucked up seizure but on the inside I was touching hands with God and those hands pounded love into like I've never felt before. I honestly thought I was going to break out into a seizure at any moment but He assured me that everything would be alright and that the twitches I was feeling were Him physically showing me how much He loved me, weirdly enough though, It never felt sexual in any way and infact nothing of the experience was sexual but felt better than sex itself. I'm still tossed about my specific religion but I do believe in the presence of God now, In all honestly Christianity seemed to have been the major theme of it but there were also major hints to every other religion. Maybe each religion is its own puzzle piece to the game of God and probably once you combine each one you'll be able to make out the picture of God? Just a thought though. Just before my realization of God, the Mushies kept me repeating certain Mantras in English, Chinese (felt like both Mandarin and Cantonese dialects but I'm not too fluent in either so I can't confirm), and even in Spanish. I'm not too sure what they meant but they allowed me to feel God so I'm not complaining. After the trip has more-or-less been completed I decided to change into my colorful and comfy outfit and head back down stairs and make food for myself, smoke a very small amount of hashish I made the day before, and head off into the dream realm.This report has gotten pretty long and I apologize to the people that have read all the way through but I like putting in as much detail from the trip as I can remember. Hope y'all enjoy your life! Mush luv DMT fam!!...