My own truth

I felt compelled to take another 14 grams of Penis Envy. I did this after my 28g journey. This was more of introspective process. Initially it was a rough going. The voice(s) I heard wasn't the best. Typically I only heard words when my eyes are closed. Apparently this wasn't a typical dose. I normally hear a female voice. Dmt or mushrooms doesn't matter. Always the same voice. This time it was male. With a deep voice. It startled me. I was being patronized with backhanded compliments."You're the best" "The best it's ever done it" Talk about a ego blow.. However it made smile. I also heard"terrorize" "I can't help you now" . Yeah it was interesting to say the least. I verbalized a "fuck you" directed at the voice and heard a "szing szing" sound..Like a sword slashing.. I immediately stop talking back.. I knew what the message was. I am blessed to of documented this journey via video. Watching it/myself on mushrooms has been a blessing. I get hit harder. I enjoy that. I took a shower. It felt like I was Washing away the negative. It was amazing. I fell different type of clean. Now granted I'll never feel clean about some of my past. That's not what this is about. The clean is more less about accepting who I am. Realizing my own truth. Being okay with it. I talk about my dog. How he is number 1.if you share a bed with me you'll always be number two compared to my dog and that's just how it is. It's about being honest and letting anybody know. I'm okay with that. Truly I am a lot and it's okay. Except those words but didn't realize the severity of how they apply to me. I understand now. Talking mainly and doing less flopping around this time let me sort of speak my peace to the universe. I feel like I put" it" out there. For me for all. I feel like I've healed. I know what's what. I'm at peace. I'm going to post the video for everyone to watch.. it's like I was being interviewed by myself.