Trip Reports
So I decided to dip my foort in the water this time. After 20-30 minutes everything was really bright, with heightened visual accuity. Then, I started feeling very giggly. I was watching a "how to meditation" show on Netflix, if you've seen the beginning its all animated and I could hardly stop from laughing my ass off. My son came into the kitchen(living room adjacent) so I somehow maintained my composure until he went back to his room. I switched to the series Netflix' "Our Planet". Suddenly I glanced over to my front door to see some Mistletoe we have hanging moving... You know, undulating/swimming around? For a moment I started to panic a bit, saying to myself, "theres no turning back now". So I focused my attention on the TV. The patterns started fractaling, and spiraling. The overwhelming feeling of joy and emotion I felt was something I have never experienced in my life. Then it got stronger, like a wave suddenly went rushing through me. I'm not sure if this is common but everything seemed twice as loud as usual. I had to turn down the TV because it was so powerful. I looked at the blanket I had covering me, it's pattern was swirling and undulating into these multicolored swirls. I was just amazed at the feeling of emotion surging through me. I wasn't crying but I couldn't stop tearing. I suppose they were tears of joy. I texted my wife earlier and asked here if she wanted to try some with me when she got home. I really felt like I wanted to see her. To be honest we haven't been on very good terms for quite some time. When she got home she looked at me and asked me "ARE YOU OKay"? I was all the way scooted down on the couch with the blanket up to my chin.
I have to say it was really uncomfortable to be with someone not feeling or at least someone who understands what I was feeling. I suddenly felt really guilty and it dawned on me "oh shit, am I going to have a bad trip now"? So , I really concentrated on staying positive and not letting myself go down a dark path. I'm happy to say. she was actually very cool about it. After my wife got home, I felt like everything in my mind was trying to end it. I came down really fast after that, probably 45 minutes. She then wanted to watch CobraKai, so I put it on and we watched it together. I apologized to her and really felt like I understood why she was unhappy in the past. Seeing me in my emotional state as I tried to explain the amazing experience I was having seemed to help. Since I was coming down, I tld her about how it was wearing off. She said "oh its over" almost like, that doesnt last that long(talking about the trip). Which made me feel like she might be game to try it. It took about 2 more hours for the vsiuals to calm down. I would say it was a really good experience. I'm going to get one of those really sensative scales that can measure mili-micrograms. I wish I could have measured accurately to know exactly how much I ingested.
Suggestions on those scales would be appreciated.
Thanks,
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