55G fresh GT

I started out the day with a hearty breakfast and helping a good friend of  mine move into their new townhome to start a new chapter in their life and unknowingly starting one of my own. So heading home just after 3 I quickly went to work straightening out the place as I had been away since Friday morning and had a few things out of place. After sanitizing my mush room and hopping in the shower I harvested 2 of my tubs and cleanded up my fruits and setting them up to dry I set 55G aside to throw in my blender with a fresh orange. Realizing the liq will be closed the next day I had the sudden urge to run up there. Also as an alcoholic who has been struggling to quit and only had 2 days sober at the time this was a very  stressful time for me. I took the time to give the house a once over and rinse out my blender and go grab my mail. After about a half hour I scooped up the mush and would  chase it with the liquid in the cup. I called my son since he was at my parents for the weekend before he went trick or treating and when I got off of the phone I put some music on and sat back in my couch while  contemplating  going up to the liq again my friend calls to chat for a bit before she takes her kids out trick or treating which saved me from going up to the liq again. By the time I get off of the phone I feel the familiar heaviness in my chest and go wash my face looking into the mirror and telling myself I still have time to run up to the liq I put my shoes on and look back into the mirror and see my face yet it's not quite me I now have zero interest in going uptown. I head back to my living room  and turn the music down and as a wave of (what did I do to myself) goes over me before I lay down yawn and start focusing on my breathing. I look around and know that it has begun. I go turn the radio off and I close and cover my eyes. What starts as faint shapes moving around quickly turns into brightly colored lines that almost resemble multi colored blades of grass after watching this I begin to feel like I'm floating and the patch of grass starts getting further away until I am hovering over what can be described best as an ever changing forest. I feel as if I'm falling my heart is racing and the forest is morphing into a kaleidoscope until I hit the canopy and everything under is now rays of light I feel like I'm floating  into a cloud and am quickly surrounded by ropes of all sizes  and I have the sudden urge to pee I dismiss this as I do not want to miss anything and an indistinguishable chanting begins and gets louder until I hear it
 water Water WATER WATER... I spring up as if on a fountain to go relieve myself on my way threw my kitchen I drink a large of cup of water and go lay back down cover my face and within moments I look all around and I'm surrounded by a ball of roots yet it was alive and in constant motion I see a mushroom  and miniature birds? Bats? Bugs? And the roots shrivel then I open my eyes and it all disappears. I get up and go outside to smoke and try to make sense of it all. Almost a week later and I gag at the thought of drinking