Trip Reports
Saw something very similar to this image the other day when i was tripping on shrooms. Definitely a very hard trip over all. It was my second trip in my new place of living.I took an eight dried and about 20 to 30 g fresh escondido cubensis and made a tea with lemon, a little salt, and some cinnamon. But right as i prepared my tea the person i thought was going to be around decided to leave for the day.Well i already had the tea brewed and ready to go so i decided fuck it im gonna do it anyway. I drank the tea. And It was delicious! I sat there for a bit and smoked some weed with some amanita pantherina. I was in kind of a snotty fuckit head space so i just sat there and played guitar and kinda made up some angsty, angry, music (what a way to bring myself up in a trip right?) Idk i was just trying to get rid of some negativity ive been feeling and i thought this would be a good way to do it. But it was just making me hit this deep place in myself that ive never been to. It felt like i hit my very bottom.Then all the sudden i got the feeling that i should go lay down. So i did. Thinking. Hey the amanitas and cubes are about to blast me off me somewhere! (Had a cool experience with this combo before)But instead, as soon as i got under the blanket, it felt like i was being screamed at and beaten down. It felt as if i was in a dark dungeon. And it felt like there was no good present. Normally i have what feels like a protector with me. But this time i felt alone and in darkness. i couldnt take it after a few minutes. So i got up. These voices were calling me a fool and i felt something grab the back of my head and force me to look at the ceiling. I kept questioning: "WHO ARE YOU? WHO KEEPS YELLING AT ME LIKE THIS?"then these "false gods" came to me. There were a bunch of them. There was an "evil jesus with eyeliner" lookin guy. A big fat red guy who had arms all around his head. And there were also a bunch of weird looking pyramids and ither things i either cant remember or just cant describe.I call these false gods because of thet way they "were". They all felt very evil like they wanted to misguide me and distract me from the truth. their intensions only seemed as if they were to deceive. They wanted all of my attention and werent nice about it. (I also had a trip recently were some "things" were threatening to possess me. But i walked away from them and chose not to talk to them)I really wish i wouldve left my room. But i pretty much just stood in one spot for a few hours until someone came and took me outide. But by that point i felt pretty much like nothing. I feel much better now but it definitely left me some things to think about.I usually dont have "bad" trips. But id say this one was bad. i do feel as if ive learned some things but i gotta let em sink in for awhile
Posted in: Psilocybin, Other
Topics:
demons, psilocybin, muscimol, spirituality