The obvious accident

So my relationship with DMT is relatively new. I have tried several methods of use, sandwiched, nectar collector, glass pipe, and c cell cartridges. I have had several scary experience so recently I've been taking it pretty easy, trying to make myself comfortable with the idea. Cartridges really interested me, so I grabbed some empty carts and some 80/20 mix and started experimenting. My first try was nice and mellow, 2 huge hits at least before reality started to bend, which was what I was looking for at the time. Well tonight I made a fresh cart for my lady, just like the ones before. So here sits this extra empty cart, I said "fuck it" and melted a gram of straight deems and piped it into the cart. Im not even a little concerned with it crystalizing, its been a problem with the carts before but I know if I wrap it in a heating pad for 5 minutes it's good to go. So I go for it, full send only. 1 gram nearly fills the 1ml cart. I take a seat on the couch. Take a quick puff, and blow one of those cute clouds right before I inhale to inspect the vape density... super thin. So I'm thinking oh shit, this might not work. Totally disappointed and discouraged, I take a second hit, this time a real slow pull for about 5 seconds. Cute little puff, and it thick as could be. I inhale, hold it for 1..2..oh shit. Then three final flashes of reality, me holding the pen, me setting the pen on the table, and then throwing myself into the couch. Blastoff. Boy I was not ready, but there I was. Ripped right from my comfort zone. I always have a little fear of death, and tend to immediately panic. This time was no different, and I immediately regretted the decision, but I was able to talk myself down. It took some time to come around but when I did I just had to laugh, I knew what I was in for. Once I stop being so afraid maybe I can learn something from all this.