Ego death by accident.

Ok. I was irresponsibly on methamphetamine and took 3 tabs of lsd. I noticed things get fucky and I started gagging then it happened I started attempting to vomit myself inside out.The next thing I remember is I could not get out of my own way and it was driving me insane and then that unzipping feeling hit me.That feeling that salvia gives you like splitting and tactile hallucinating.So I spent some time in two different time zones a few seconds apart trying not to go into the void. My friends said just let go, I did. I remember but not that great. I then was forced to live through my life over and over and over again like a trillion tiny blades folding down into one blade. I was horrified and wished I could tell someone that I wanted them to blow my brains out. At some point I got a look at my tiny little ego before it was wiped clean. it was a nonsensical joke that I don't even want to talk about lol. My friend put a neck fan on me at that point and said here this will help. As soon as the neck fan was on I was able to go through my life and get used to the fact that I have no choice. I was able to take another step back and I could see reality as a canvas being stitched out into grooves that we can follow.Choosing which groove is what feels like free will but I definitely got the sense that I didn't really have free will and we all wake up and lay down pretty much the same way.During me living every possible life with all the groove choices all at once I met a few very successful people who knew what I knew. They looked pained. Then I tried to take another step back which would be the step to see the hand making the stitch.I was denied.I was quickly pushed or laid back down to the point I was at I tried again and that's when I went into the void again after some time I came to in a dark room and just thought about what had happened to me.I left some parts out here and there because I can't create a story line with everything.It may just be a weird irresponsible trip my main point is this felt like that forced movement feeling salvia gives you and I either saw things normally but in a 4th type dimension way.Like seeing all timelines and all choices all at once and not knowing how to preceve it.Or. I got to see a framework for reality which is when we die we are reborn as ourselves with no memory retention and we've done this countless times before. Like this crazy shit is happening all the time we just don't notice it and when I do notice it it's hell, especially with my first time dilation experience making it really seem like an eternity. Again this reminded of salvia so much