My second psychedelic experience (LSD)

My second psychedelic experience was with LSD. My love affair with LSD started in my twenties and has been a huge part in my development as an adult. The same person, Mickey, got me in to LSD. He knew where to get it all. Pills, shrooms, acid and doses. I never really went into drugs as deep as he did but when I tried LSD its almost like a part of me died. LSD really made me realize how incredibly disfunctional I really was. At this time, I didn't know I was bipolar but by the end of the week after the trip I realized how I rely too much on others and never really gave myself the chance to grow out of some selfish childish behaviors.The actual trip itself was so profound, I found myself needing more. I don't know if LSD is addicting but I felt like I needed it. Not to feel normal but to feel something other than my misery. LSD has been a huge factor in my realization of my abilities at work, home and also in more supernatural ways. Let's just say that ever since I started tripping my everything has been in sync with my strange parts of life. I'm sure you've all heard of synchronization with divine timing and all that mumbo-jumbo. Well this all started with LSD. Or at least I began to notice it more. It's almost like I'm a character in a book finding out about my existence in the world but to just find I'm a book character. Who's ever move is known by the author. LSD made me see my mortality in a different light. Let me just begin by saying I've struggled with suicidal thoughts and its pretty safe to say that I often lust over the idea of death. But LSD made me realize how special my life really is. I mean to be in this ever changing world full of crazy people with crazy ideas. It's a miracle we are all here, making shit happen. Good and bad. LSD really whooped my ass too though. It was full of tough love. That I needed. That I don't think I'd ever truly experienced until LSD helped me show myself love and compassion. Slowly but surely. LSD/ meditation has helped my relationship with myself and others.