My first psychedelic experience (psilocybin)

I remember the first time I tried psychedelics. I was 19 at the time and I'd just moved to Austin, Texas. When I moved there with my husband(boyfriend at the time) I was a completely different person than who I am now. During my stay in Austin, I worked for a restaurant called outback steakhouse. That's where I met Mickey, he became my roommate after he introduced us to psilocybin. It wasn't straight after but it was more of an impulsive decision to make him our roommate but that's a story for another occasion. My first experience with mushrooms was a heady and heavy one. During the come up I could not control my emotions and had mood swings that apparently freaked out Mickey so he never tripped with me again. But I felt like I'd just found holy grail of substances. Prior to this I was a frequent smoker so much so that I had issues with my brother and his wife who lived with me before mickey moved in. It was after my family got out of my hair that I felt free enough to experiment with these substances. Among that experience I had many revelations of my life that after time past proved to be stemming from childhood trauma and emotional neglect. I saw myself for what I was, an empty soul that had lost its way. My life felt like it was in pieces for a while but luckily I feel better mentally than when I didn't know all this love the universe had to offer me. Before psilocybin I was unaware of myself and the impact my decesions had on my health. Not to mention the pain I put others through because something was wrong with me. To this day I work hard on myself so that others don't have to.