3rd DMT Trip "voices of the elves"

 This time i dont think i was in the right mood i didnt have a proper intention and i was very tired beforehand but i decided too anyway .and i was pretty determined to go deeper this time and i think probably too much as id also been watching lots of things on ayahuasca and shamans and all sorts or trip reoprts on yuotube so i think my vision of what i expected to see what too pre planned from the visuals you get on youtube . anyway i weighed out 35mg and sperated it into 2 equal  doses and smoked the first bit i was listening to a piece of music my friend made which has tibetan throat singing in it which is pretty dark but also nice but for some reason i think the music in the end was putting me off as id selected a bit of a play list and the rest of what id selected wasnt doing it ..so id decided to go for the SHUT EYES experience this time to see what the diffrecne was but maybe due to expectations seeing too many videos ..or not doing enough dmt i wasnt getting much just some light neon jelly fish looking outlines floating about and colours ...(maybe i was expecting too much) ..so i had filled the pipe with the rest and smoked the rest of the 35mg and layed back down then the images of the neon things got brighter and i could see an array of neon lines flowing in an ogranic way but couldnt make out what they where (nothing meaningful) apart from one reminded me of the album cover dark side of the moon by pink floyd with the glass prism and rainbow of light passing through haha...(i thought well yeah we all know pink floyd has seen the light haha) and the rest where very nice to look at ...so anyway i noitced there was a big white area in my focul vision that felt safe but the darker areas i wondered if that was DARKNESS in my mind or in life ..but as i looked at the dark areas more they exploded with colour and i was thinknig ah "even in the dark there is light" but really made me realise you cant have one without the other again ,,...(ying and yang sort of thing) which was comforting again ..throughout this i was getting a rush feeling across my forehead but it felt like pressure as well but the rush feeling felt good but after a while i thought i heard a couple of voices ..(which i did ) and they where really high pitched (elves) and the first thing they said was "you can see" "you can see" now alli could see was black behind my eye lids but with organic neon patterns but the voices sounded clear but distant to my left out of reach ...then they said "come and see"....."come and see" and i was concentrating and saying to myself (probably them) ..yes i will do (but i knew i couldn't quite get there) with that they started laughing and giggling but it wasnt like they where laughing at me just happy for when i come ...then one of them said first you must see this ..and i saw a bright white light which got further away and then next to it i saw some orange and red essense like energy flwoing near it but i thought woah is thst bad...and the high pitched elve like voice said dont worry thats in all of us / in everything so i inspected the orange and red sort of lava more ...this was all very mild visuals almost dream like but more colourful than a dream and no geometric patterns after this i sat up for a bit and the pressure on my head where the rush was felt really strong almost like someone pushing down on my head my neck even felt a bit under pressure ...then i did a huge long yawn ..and the pressure went ...obviously some sort of purging as all the pressure from the front of my head went as i yawned out this huge yawn it was relief even though the feeling of the rush itself was nice the heavy feeling on my head was wierd ..anyway i chilled out for an hour and then weighed out 40mg and filled the pipe again but i think i did mess up some tokes with the flame torch  and getting the timing right so not to burn it and inhale at the right time....anyway to cut to the chase after a lot of fucking about and getting a few lungs in ..everything on my studio table rack comparments started moving left and right all out of snyc with one another even though there all fixed in normal world (if ther is such a thing )...i got an overwhelming feeling of happy love again but really felt it was love not happiness this time and wow it me hard but good ...just the visuals where making me keep repeting WOW ....WOW ....mixed with the feeling dmt gives you it was like i was really happy to have been shown what i was seeing i felt lucky to have be seeing it ...as i kept saying wow tears started to come out of the corner of my eyes but i was so happy it was an amazment type of tears ... joy of bliss at almost nothing.. i was jsut staring at tthe moving hings in my room and was in ore of lit all just blown away ..

This trip ended up having a pretty deep effect.. as the music i was listening too whilst on the dmt was made by friend  and was tibetan style chanting but didnt feel right on that night ,he also had travelled the astral planes but had also travelled india tibet and was a true nomad of a man and sadly died the weekend after this dmt experience.... (i dont know what to make of that if anything... the music thing not being able to get into it ..when i normally really like that piece of music of his  )... but i know his energy continues , and i think the dmt helped me cope with it after.... in the way i saw him and his life and our frinedship