Mushroom Loop of Insanity

I'd like to start by saying I do believe psilocybin can be beneficial to its users. I know it was for me in the beginning.

I recently experienced the most horrific trip of my life. I ate well over an ounce of mushrooms. I quickly was so far gone I found myself in an uncontrollable loop of a song by The Used where I remember screaming all kinds of words that came to mind making zero sense. My brain was moving faster than I could process what was happening. I experienced what it was to be psycodic. It was so painful and clear that I had gone too far that I wanted nothing more than to kill myself and make it stop. It was as if I was paralyzed on my living room floor and could do nothing more than smash my head into the floor, trying to black out. As horrific as it sound, I remember killing my dog on this trip and adding to my guilt and desire to end my life. Even the next day, when I woke up in a pile of puke, I was terrified to check if my poor dog was breathing. Luckily he was. I will never forgive myself for that night and will never take any psychedelic again in my life. That shit really scared me straight.