First and second DMT trips

Hello all.I thought that after reading about DMT for about 25 years, and dealing with ayahuasca for 4 years, I would be prepared for it. I couldn't be more wrong. I'm using a glass pipe, those with a hole on the top and a butane torch lighter. Last week I did it for the first time. I wasted some DMT trying to do it right, but I felt some effects. Not much colors. Not the same as ayahuasca. It was almost black and white. Then I smoked some more and it came quickly. Quickly and with a punch. I was immediately teleported to this space. I "saw" the space curving into itself, like circles - What is normally called the Chrysanthemum. It was brown in color. But it looked like a face, a grinning face. I felt overwhelmed and frightened by this presence. After some seconds the intensity diminished, and after a while I took another hit, a small hit, and tried to hide my eyes from the light of the day, so the light would not interfere with the inner experience. I felt some colors, more ayahuasca like, and I felt a feminine, mother-like presence. I was curled, and I was like a child with my head in her lap. I felt much love. It was a mild but good experience, and it persisted for a few minutes. Today I decided to explore some more of this realm. After the first hit, the pressure started building up. I took the second hit, then, at all speed, came the grinning chrysanthemum and it felt like a curtain came down and all was brown again, the space curling into itself and then I took the third hit. Then, all of a sudden, here was this massive, MASSIVE ball of fire with a fucking evil feel. It ripped my being. It instantly devoured me and it was devouring everything else in its way. It was very fast. It was travelling at a great speed in the universe and eating, absorbing everything in its way. It was like a fire planet, or a star, or a black hole, or it was a dimension in itself. I don't have a clue. All I know is that is was immensely big and powerful and I was like an ant being smashed by it. I tried to resist. I even blew the smoke I still had in my lungs, but there was nothing I could do to get rid of this evil presence. It was everything, it was everywhere. It was like the Eye of Sauron from the Lord of the Rings. I was never so frightened in my entire life. There was no sound in this trip. Just that high pitched buzz ringing in my ears.Has anyone seen this entity? It had eyes, I think. I remember I perceived it as somewhat reptilian. A reptilian demonic grinning star eating everything on its way. So.... not much love for a first time. No friendly entities to say hello or to show me marvellous things. Maybe next time.