Shadow Dancers

This was a fairly spontaneous trip. I went into my meditation room, loaded up 50 mg of deemz into my oil burner. I proceeded to sit it down somewhere and do some meditation. Typically I am hit with an extreme amount of anxiety before going in, but this time the anxiety was non-existent. So before I manifested the anxiety via placebo effect, I quickly grabbed the oil burner and began slowly heating the bowl. I let a decent amount of vapor collect before inhaling, and then I held it in for about 15 seconds while maintaining the heat on the bowl to get the second hit ready. I did this a total of four times and on the fourth time I got a ringing in my ear and the whole world before me started to vibrate. Immediately I was thrust into this mesmerizing purple vortex at hyper-speed... beautiful colors of purple and shades of black... like all of the shades possible. That was when I saw the shadow dancers. It was like I was a fire, and I could see shadows of the beings that were dancing around me... it was as if I was in the middle of a ceremony. These shadow dancers were chanting around me and giving me visions of the past... of indigenous ceremonies... I could feel the ancestral energy radiating through my soul. I asked as many questions as possible, and was silent when I felt it was appropriate to be so. I was operated on not in a surgical fashion, like a blissful healing sweat you’d do with peyote.. I had so many visions of death... It was all so beautiful. I feel as if a veil of depression and anxiety has been lifted off of my shoulders. There is so much that I have answers to... this really makes me want to go further in my soul searching, to do Ayahuasca. I need the full experience... I need the deep cleanse, the hours it takes... someone told me smoking dmt is like dipping your toes in the ocean and Ayahuasca is like jumping in.. and I believe them. I had planned on writing down what had happened directly afterward but I was so mesmerized that I couldn’t move my physical body out of sheer immense contemplation as to what the fuck had just happened. Thank you for reading!