First time DMT

So let me tell you a tale of a journey though this world into another. This may run on... I'm in my 40's and have been a psychonaut since u was 15. I learned of DMT a while back and took my time to learn about it before I was ready. About 3 months ago I started to try and source materials to make my own but had some life stuff get in the way. I decided that I'd reach out to a myco friend that had offered the molecule about a year ago. Turned out that this person was in fa t not a friend and ripped me off for $200. At this point I'm feeling like I'm being guided away from the molecule, I'm ready to give up. One afternoon I'm chillin on the porch with a buddy telling him of my struggles when he says "I know a guy". I'm introduced and after hearing my story he gifts me some. I'm hesitant to jump in because I just spent all this time but feel like she's pushing me away. I'm a lover of all things and yesterday was a bit of a sad day. We have a couple of wild rabbits living in the yard. Around 5 my wife screamed oh no!! One of the rabbits had been hit by a car. Unfortunately it wasn't going to make it so I had to end its struggle. I walked it to the woods and said a few words while giving it reiki and asking for it's safe journey home. A short while later my wife and our friend were talking about DMT and that our friend was interested. After some discussions we decided it was a good time. I loaded up the Yocan and did what I was supposed to do... WOW! I can't even begin to thank the universe for what I was shown. First pull had mild visual changes, second pull had the ringing in my head(not my ears) by the third pull I could almost not take it. I got as much as I could and instantly the world as I knew it was different. The trees flowed in the breeze unlike ever before and overlayed onto the world were the geometric shapes of other things. There was a feminine figure inviting me in. Her vibration was nothing but love and light. I wasn't scared but cautious for a moment. I let that go and saw all the beauty one can imagine. There were birds everywhere. Having thought on this last night into this morning trying to process my journey all I come to every time is that I was being rewarded for being the human that I am. It feels like all the turtles, birds, dogs, cats, rabbits, dogs, worms... that I've helped in my life were there thanking me. I know that was long but I had to say it all.Thank you for reading,Mush love and light to all you beautiful souls ????